I love coming home after a long day in school to see my mom standing at the kitchen doorway smiling and asking how my day turn out. asking if i got caught in the rain and if i'm hungry. i love the feeling of being cared for and loved, and indulge in every moment of those little acts that i know i'll treasure till the end of time.. acts that i sometimes take for granted, little things like making me a cup of hot tea on a rainy day when i'm lazing around reading a book on the rocking chair. comments like 'enjoy yourself' when i call home on a late night out and 'good luck' before every exam paper. i guess these are some of the ways pple tangibalise the important intangibles...
thankful.. of being given the opportunity to be child-like forever..
On my mom's bdae, i sent an sms dedication to her favourite radio station. my dad did it too. she called me when i was on my way to school.. and i think i made myself happier than her. Just like my grandma's bdae. Gave her a nicely arranged rose hand bouquet and felt happier than i could have if i bought it for myself.
think 'you can't put perfume on others without getting some on yourself'.
The days are getting longer, nights shorter and maybe that explains my inappropriate entry. this can well be a May entry. lolx...
Oh.. do play the music file i placed at the bottom left of this page. I dun understand cantonese but this song is nice..
The projects are fast falling in place. I find myself starting to oil the gears so they dont get stuck when i have to go steam-rolling ahead.
The following phrase describes my feeling during tutorials:
[Everyone else was talking, there wasn't much left to say]
This, can also be applied to my daily encounters with pple.
AND, i always try my best-est to stand by my belief-
DO NOT SPEAK UNLESS YOU CAN IMPROVE ON SILENCE.
January 25, 2007
January 22, 2007
I finally grasp the meaning behind the phrase "People are beset with problems because they are too sober.." Had a little too much to drink last night. always thought that before i get to know what it meant, i need to first learn to like drinking, and find a way to deal with the rashes and hangover the following day.. But it seems that i can deal with both problems with that invisible limit. that's why we're always told Libras can balance.
Guess i'm a step closer to understanding why pple drink until dead drunk.. Besides postponing their problems, they get to have a great night sleep with improved blood circulation. Next time i'll do it again. just for the kuai gan.
Was in the mood for something different. All thanks to that indecisive nature of mine...
Guess i'm a step closer to understanding why pple drink until dead drunk.. Besides postponing their problems, they get to have a great night sleep with improved blood circulation. Next time i'll do it again. just for the kuai gan.
Was in the mood for something different. All thanks to that indecisive nature of mine...
January 17, 2007
Got that IQ test link thru ching's blog. That test is so inaccurate i dunno what to say. lolx. If it's accurate, i shld be somewhere doing something great and my life SHOULD be full of possibilities and opportunities. but as far as i can see, it isnt so.
Anyway, i managed to plan my timetable to a 4-day week but the minus points of this decision is that i'll have longer days in school, and more breaks in between. the break issue isnt that critical as i can slack ard, plan project meetings or what in between the 2 hours, but it's the long days that i'm worried about. For a slacker like me, it's the norm to sleep through lectures and sometimes tutorials. Therefore, i'm prepared to miss out more stuff than usual.. Let's just pray everything turns out fine.
Anyway, i'm a little depressed though i kinda expected the results. I got a C+ grade last semester. My friends were saying that they didnt do very well for last semester and they got Bs for all their modules. AND that happened to be what i am trying to aim for- not get a C, not right in the very beginning. Then again, this is deja-vu. I got a C grade in my poly first sem, and the results are similar. So i kinda got the hunch that my uni education is going to turn out just fine. maybe not as great as poly, but definitely not terrible. I took 2 level 2 modules (AGAIN) this sem and all 5 are core modules. Friends are saying i'm crazy to compete with the year 2s.. BUT they didnt realise that i'm the same age as most of those year 2 girls so they're not really very much ahead and senior as it seems. and tertiary education is as such. U have to learn to disregard all those labels and terms that scare you and affect your confidence level. if not, education is simply too tough to go on with those invisible conditions that u feel you have to meet. sometimes i take my hat off myself. lolx. Independence is now part of me. I find it alright to sign up for classes alone, without the hassle of calling up pple and asking what they choose coz ultimately, u'll get over it. I did that last semester so doing it again this sem is a breeze. U know, practice makes perfect.
Anyway, i managed to plan my timetable to a 4-day week but the minus points of this decision is that i'll have longer days in school, and more breaks in between. the break issue isnt that critical as i can slack ard, plan project meetings or what in between the 2 hours, but it's the long days that i'm worried about. For a slacker like me, it's the norm to sleep through lectures and sometimes tutorials. Therefore, i'm prepared to miss out more stuff than usual.. Let's just pray everything turns out fine.
Anyway, i'm a little depressed though i kinda expected the results. I got a C+ grade last semester. My friends were saying that they didnt do very well for last semester and they got Bs for all their modules. AND that happened to be what i am trying to aim for- not get a C, not right in the very beginning. Then again, this is deja-vu. I got a C grade in my poly first sem, and the results are similar. So i kinda got the hunch that my uni education is going to turn out just fine. maybe not as great as poly, but definitely not terrible. I took 2 level 2 modules (AGAIN) this sem and all 5 are core modules. Friends are saying i'm crazy to compete with the year 2s.. BUT they didnt realise that i'm the same age as most of those year 2 girls so they're not really very much ahead and senior as it seems. and tertiary education is as such. U have to learn to disregard all those labels and terms that scare you and affect your confidence level. if not, education is simply too tough to go on with those invisible conditions that u feel you have to meet. sometimes i take my hat off myself. lolx. Independence is now part of me. I find it alright to sign up for classes alone, without the hassle of calling up pple and asking what they choose coz ultimately, u'll get over it. I did that last semester so doing it again this sem is a breeze. U know, practice makes perfect.
January 16, 2007
January 14, 2007
My phone contact list totally wiped out due to the 'unlikely event that my ** product needs service', as the warranty card states... talk about suayness. AND this happened on New Year's day, when it is supposed to be a day of new beginnings, and coincidently shortly after my post on 'stupid thought of losing my phone just so as to clear contact list without going thru them one by one'. talking about coincidences.. the book i happen to borrow has this saying:
"Either the world is full of coincidences or there no such thing as a coincidence."
It seems so much like a big fat joke. just that i'm not laughing. so pls pple, when u drop me an sms, do include ur name as well. i'm already quite sick of explaining what happened. spare me the torture of going thru it again. thanks.
Sch's started and i'm all ready. how i wished i could say that without the guilt tugging at my heart and my subconscious (preconscious actually) chiding me for even wanting to say that white lie. I'm so not prepared to take all 5 biz core modules this sem. But shouldnt i start building up confidence before i embark on true adulthood where i can go watch Borat without thinking how nice it can be to go watch it on film instead of reading those damn reviews.
anyway, to lighter subjects.. i've finished reading this book titled 'Snow Flower and the Secret Fan' by Lisa See. I aint a great fan of novels but happened to grab this book without even glancing thru the backcover. guess it's one of the animism-take-center days where inanimate objects seem to will u to do certain things.. like the excuse pple always give when they buy stuff on impulse. it's the 'i-just-have-to-get-it--the-dress/bag/shoes-is-asking-me-to-take-it-home' kinda situation.. digressing a little.. anyway, that book is great. perfect for the weekend.
every ending is just a beginning and learning to seek newpaths when u reach dead end. Guess with one week into the semester, i'll just have to get going till i'm done with it. and look forward to term break! yeah. talk about optimism.
"Either the world is full of coincidences or there no such thing as a coincidence."
It seems so much like a big fat joke. just that i'm not laughing. so pls pple, when u drop me an sms, do include ur name as well. i'm already quite sick of explaining what happened. spare me the torture of going thru it again. thanks.
Sch's started and i'm all ready. how i wished i could say that without the guilt tugging at my heart and my subconscious (preconscious actually) chiding me for even wanting to say that white lie. I'm so not prepared to take all 5 biz core modules this sem. But shouldnt i start building up confidence before i embark on true adulthood where i can go watch Borat without thinking how nice it can be to go watch it on film instead of reading those damn reviews.
anyway, to lighter subjects.. i've finished reading this book titled 'Snow Flower and the Secret Fan' by Lisa See. I aint a great fan of novels but happened to grab this book without even glancing thru the backcover. guess it's one of the animism-take-center days where inanimate objects seem to will u to do certain things.. like the excuse pple always give when they buy stuff on impulse. it's the 'i-just-have-to-get-it--the-dress/bag/shoes-is-asking-me-to-take-it-home' kinda situation.. digressing a little.. anyway, that book is great. perfect for the weekend.
every ending is just a beginning and learning to seek newpaths when u reach dead end. Guess with one week into the semester, i'll just have to get going till i'm done with it. and look forward to term break! yeah. talk about optimism.
January 01, 2007
This marks the end of a year and the start of the next.
While striving to live life to the fullest, let's just believe in the following:
- To live for some future goal is shallow. It's the sides of the mountain that sustain life, not the top.
- If you wait for tomorrow, tomorrow comes. If you don't wait for tomorrow, tomorrow comes.
- We can't stop the waves, but we can learn to surf.
- We spend 99% of our time walking towards our goals, and only 1% on the goal itself… so shouldn't we learn to enjoy the walking, too??
- It is good to have an end to journey toward, but it is the journey that matters in the end.
- We do not remember days, we remember moments.
- The best thing about the future is that it only comes one day at a time.
In this time and age where we bank on efficiency, time-pressure comes into place naturally in our daily lives, so much so that we go steam-rolling ahead without stopping. I try to bear in mind that doing more things faster is no substitute for doing the right things and am still working on speaking at a slower rate and regulating emotions though I don't seem to be succeeding.
Sometime back, I read some book reviews and noted the following sentence:
"I write entirely to find out what I'm thinking, what I'm looking at, what I see and what it means. What I want and what I fear."- Joan Didion
Seems like everyone is trying to find sanity through words, in this ever-changing world.
Another excerpt:
"From day to day, as you walk down a busy street in the large and modern and prosperous city in which you work and live, dismayed, puzzled… at how alone you feel in this crowd, and how awful it is to go unnoticed, how awful to go unloved, even as you are surrounded by more people than you could possibly get to know in a lifetime that lasted for millennia. One da that awful feeling of displacement comes over you... Being ordinary is already so taxing, and being ordinary takes all you have out of you.." (Jamaica Kincaid: A small place)
-This, describes the exact feeling of helplessness and loneliness…
I guess I've much fate with Taoism and Buddhism much more than the rest. But that doesn't mean I don't believe in others. When the school's Dharma club's booth was up for that particular day outside the library, I happened to past by and took this book which teaches the everyday stuff.
It mentioned that the first challenge is to put out my own fire as one who is on fire is more likely to spread fire with what he touches than to put them out. (people asking for advice/ people needing help. Just like the SJAB D-ABC way. Check for Danger, check Airways, Breathing, and Circulation.. lolx)
Many things matter a lot to me but I still take them lightly. It's not as if I have an indifferent attitude. It just means that I take things in my stride. Somehow I've managed to convince myself that nothing is permanent, as hard as I may try. Coz how can anything I hold on to remain the same when even I myself, the holder, change?.
So as nothing is materially substantial, we shouldn’t constantly look for 'substance' in life.
So a perfect answer to the question:
Being alone is just being alone.
Being lonely is being unhappy about being alone.
Oh.. And one of the reasons why I love rainy days is just that rain is the only thing that binds Heaven and Earth. So right now, I can just imagine you sitting in front of the monitor nodding/ saying "Oh ya! Aha! I see!"
Cheers, to a better year!
While striving to live life to the fullest, let's just believe in the following:
- To live for some future goal is shallow. It's the sides of the mountain that sustain life, not the top.
- If you wait for tomorrow, tomorrow comes. If you don't wait for tomorrow, tomorrow comes.
- We can't stop the waves, but we can learn to surf.
- We spend 99% of our time walking towards our goals, and only 1% on the goal itself… so shouldn't we learn to enjoy the walking, too??
- It is good to have an end to journey toward, but it is the journey that matters in the end.
- We do not remember days, we remember moments.
- The best thing about the future is that it only comes one day at a time.
In this time and age where we bank on efficiency, time-pressure comes into place naturally in our daily lives, so much so that we go steam-rolling ahead without stopping. I try to bear in mind that doing more things faster is no substitute for doing the right things and am still working on speaking at a slower rate and regulating emotions though I don't seem to be succeeding.
Sometime back, I read some book reviews and noted the following sentence:
"I write entirely to find out what I'm thinking, what I'm looking at, what I see and what it means. What I want and what I fear."- Joan Didion
Seems like everyone is trying to find sanity through words, in this ever-changing world.
Another excerpt:
"From day to day, as you walk down a busy street in the large and modern and prosperous city in which you work and live, dismayed, puzzled… at how alone you feel in this crowd, and how awful it is to go unnoticed, how awful to go unloved, even as you are surrounded by more people than you could possibly get to know in a lifetime that lasted for millennia. One da that awful feeling of displacement comes over you... Being ordinary is already so taxing, and being ordinary takes all you have out of you.." (Jamaica Kincaid: A small place)
-This, describes the exact feeling of helplessness and loneliness…
I guess I've much fate with Taoism and Buddhism much more than the rest. But that doesn't mean I don't believe in others. When the school's Dharma club's booth was up for that particular day outside the library, I happened to past by and took this book which teaches the everyday stuff.
It mentioned that the first challenge is to put out my own fire as one who is on fire is more likely to spread fire with what he touches than to put them out. (people asking for advice/ people needing help. Just like the SJAB D-ABC way. Check for Danger, check Airways, Breathing, and Circulation.. lolx)
Many things matter a lot to me but I still take them lightly. It's not as if I have an indifferent attitude. It just means that I take things in my stride. Somehow I've managed to convince myself that nothing is permanent, as hard as I may try. Coz how can anything I hold on to remain the same when even I myself, the holder, change?.
So as nothing is materially substantial, we shouldn’t constantly look for 'substance' in life.
So a perfect answer to the question:
Being alone is just being alone.
Being lonely is being unhappy about being alone.
Oh.. And one of the reasons why I love rainy days is just that rain is the only thing that binds Heaven and Earth. So right now, I can just imagine you sitting in front of the monitor nodding/ saying "Oh ya! Aha! I see!"
Cheers, to a better year!
December 27, 2006
These late nights made me a little more emo than usual.
Re-read my 2006 first few entries.. so i see. i had a great start.
didnt realise it's close to a year. i'm still as immature as ever. but i've learnt to live with it. haa
the entries got me thinking. i've grown, in age but not wisdom.
and most times, i seem to make more sense in the past.. not to mention my beliefs.. lolx.. how i stand by them. not that i dont now, but they seem to matter more then.
so.. i stated very clearly that blogging isnt sharing coz it's one-way communication. then i continue to post stuff that i think i want to share. geez.. guess life's just one contradiction after another.
2005 is even more incredible. i posted a quote i saw in HTM's office.
so here it is again:
[You cannot change the direction of the wind, but you can adjust the sails]
so choose your own destiny.
yeap. 2005 is the year of the tsunami. so 2 years after that disaster, i sit at the same spot in the comfort of my home, typing away and thinking this must be a joke. yeap. Life's a big fat joke.
Re-read my 2006 first few entries.. so i see. i had a great start.
didnt realise it's close to a year. i'm still as immature as ever. but i've learnt to live with it. haa
the entries got me thinking. i've grown, in age but not wisdom.
and most times, i seem to make more sense in the past.. not to mention my beliefs.. lolx.. how i stand by them. not that i dont now, but they seem to matter more then.
so.. i stated very clearly that blogging isnt sharing coz it's one-way communication. then i continue to post stuff that i think i want to share. geez.. guess life's just one contradiction after another.
2005 is even more incredible. i posted a quote i saw in HTM's office.
so here it is again:
[You cannot change the direction of the wind, but you can adjust the sails]
so choose your own destiny.
yeap. 2005 is the year of the tsunami. so 2 years after that disaster, i sit at the same spot in the comfort of my home, typing away and thinking this must be a joke. yeap. Life's a big fat joke.
December 26, 2006
Hohoho... Xmas is over..
Did the ultimate slacking this festive season. No work, no commitment, minimal activities.. lolx..
My Dad gave me the funniest present ever (besides the pink cat without a mouth)..
this year has been a great year. Xmas always signifies the end of a year and the beginning of the next. This year has truly been a good one, with lessons learnt, fun enjoyed, sadness felt, and memories renewed. so BRING IT ON 2007!!!
Did the ultimate slacking this festive season. No work, no commitment, minimal activities.. lolx..
My Dad gave me the funniest present ever (besides the pink cat without a mouth)..
this year has been a great year. Xmas always signifies the end of a year and the beginning of the next. This year has truly been a good one, with lessons learnt, fun enjoyed, sadness felt, and memories renewed. so BRING IT ON 2007!!!
December 23, 2006
A crazy thought got ran over yesterday.
Told my mom it's aint too bad an idea to lose my phone once every 2 years or so.. This saves me the need to ever go through the list in the phonebook to 'decide' whether to delete it or not.
Went through the process of clearing my cupboard, dust and all.
Threw away so many stuff that i treasured years back but meant nothing now. boxes, boxes and more boxes. Reminisces... ... saw the stuffed toys my dad got me when he went to Japan when i was in Primary school. I told him i want my melody, the pink rabbit under Sanrio creation. and it was the first time he came back with gifts for me.. yeah. FOUR HELLO KITTIES.. so i asked him in what way is a cat similar to a rabbit. anyway, they are gifts that make me smile, even till now. and to me, the BEST gifts are those that make me smile.
told my mom the story of the 3 boxes. my story of the 3 boxes. then i overheard her telling the same story to my aunt over the phone. lolx..
the story goes like this....
whenever u pack, you need 3 boxes (can substitude with big plastic bags).
the first box contains- Things that you definitely want
the second box contains- Things that you definitely want to get rid of
the third box contains- Things that u dunno whether to keep or not but are quite unwilling to throw away.
After sorting out, keep the first box, make sure the second box and its contents disappear, and stash the third box in the storeroom or under your bed.
When the next clearing day comes, throw away the 'third' box and whatever that's inside and begin with 3 boxes again.
Freud's theory somehow plays a part, with his Id, Ego and superego stuff and the conscious, preconscious, subconscious and what not.. You see, contents in the third box are things that you dunno whether you want or not.. it lies in between the treasure vs trash line. Hence, anywhere between the time of the first clearance and the next, whenever you 'think' of an item, you will definitely 'dig' it out of the third box, thus changing its status from nil to something. For other stuff that you dont even recall having or have totally forgotten ever owning, it doesnt matter if they're not yours now or in future. throw them away or donate to charity. dun let it clutter your living space. it doesnt matter now, or ever.
I apply my theory of the 3 boxes everytime i do clearance. and it has always worked perfectly. so there. Good things are meant to be shared.
Told my mom it's aint too bad an idea to lose my phone once every 2 years or so.. This saves me the need to ever go through the list in the phonebook to 'decide' whether to delete it or not.
Went through the process of clearing my cupboard, dust and all.
Threw away so many stuff that i treasured years back but meant nothing now. boxes, boxes and more boxes. Reminisces... ... saw the stuffed toys my dad got me when he went to Japan when i was in Primary school. I told him i want my melody, the pink rabbit under Sanrio creation. and it was the first time he came back with gifts for me.. yeah. FOUR HELLO KITTIES.. so i asked him in what way is a cat similar to a rabbit. anyway, they are gifts that make me smile, even till now. and to me, the BEST gifts are those that make me smile.
told my mom the story of the 3 boxes. my story of the 3 boxes. then i overheard her telling the same story to my aunt over the phone. lolx..
the story goes like this....
whenever u pack, you need 3 boxes (can substitude with big plastic bags).
the first box contains- Things that you definitely want
the second box contains- Things that you definitely want to get rid of
the third box contains- Things that u dunno whether to keep or not but are quite unwilling to throw away.
After sorting out, keep the first box, make sure the second box and its contents disappear, and stash the third box in the storeroom or under your bed.
When the next clearing day comes, throw away the 'third' box and whatever that's inside and begin with 3 boxes again.
Freud's theory somehow plays a part, with his Id, Ego and superego stuff and the conscious, preconscious, subconscious and what not.. You see, contents in the third box are things that you dunno whether you want or not.. it lies in between the treasure vs trash line. Hence, anywhere between the time of the first clearance and the next, whenever you 'think' of an item, you will definitely 'dig' it out of the third box, thus changing its status from nil to something. For other stuff that you dont even recall having or have totally forgotten ever owning, it doesnt matter if they're not yours now or in future. throw them away or donate to charity. dun let it clutter your living space. it doesnt matter now, or ever.
I apply my theory of the 3 boxes everytime i do clearance. and it has always worked perfectly. so there. Good things are meant to be shared.
December 22, 2006
Extracted my LAST wisdom tooth today, all thanks to my mom who suggested it.
It saved me 350 bucks!!! the amount the SCHOOL dentist quoted minus the actual price i paid in a PRIVATE clinic.
I refused to take any painkillers, and stubbornly ate curry fish head and tang yuan for dinner right after the operation, when half my mouth was still recovering from anesthetic. When i extracted the left wisdom tooth, it was the mooncake festival and i had da bing right after the operation. So today i wonder, what is the limit of my tolerance level.
Like i always say, painkillers are the drugs for a better today but horrible tomorrow. you only take it when you have one foot into you-know-where.
Told the dentist i want it out ASAP. yeap. call me crazy. right BEFORE xmas. then again, my body never really fail me. or so i choose to believe. so let's just say i'm optimistic abt the future.
I remembered posting one entry regarding my wisdom tooth, saying that the right out is out to get me coz i got out the left one. HAA.
anyway, random thoughts...
Love the weather. i have no idea how many times i must emphasize that. So my bro told me that only emo people love rainy days. well, i take that as a compliment.
it certainly matches the season. cool, special. well, thank god i dont have to work. imagine dragging out of bed at 7 to prepare for work when you can stay snug in bed till noon. that's indulgence. the ultimate festive indulgence.
It saved me 350 bucks!!! the amount the SCHOOL dentist quoted minus the actual price i paid in a PRIVATE clinic.
I refused to take any painkillers, and stubbornly ate curry fish head and tang yuan for dinner right after the operation, when half my mouth was still recovering from anesthetic. When i extracted the left wisdom tooth, it was the mooncake festival and i had da bing right after the operation. So today i wonder, what is the limit of my tolerance level.
Like i always say, painkillers are the drugs for a better today but horrible tomorrow. you only take it when you have one foot into you-know-where.
Told the dentist i want it out ASAP. yeap. call me crazy. right BEFORE xmas. then again, my body never really fail me. or so i choose to believe. so let's just say i'm optimistic abt the future.
I remembered posting one entry regarding my wisdom tooth, saying that the right out is out to get me coz i got out the left one. HAA.
anyway, random thoughts...
Love the weather. i have no idea how many times i must emphasize that. So my bro told me that only emo people love rainy days. well, i take that as a compliment.
it certainly matches the season. cool, special. well, thank god i dont have to work. imagine dragging out of bed at 7 to prepare for work when you can stay snug in bed till noon. that's indulgence. the ultimate festive indulgence.
December 14, 2006
Embracing change this season.
Plans for a better tomorrow.
Spent the say at IKEA Tampines. Love the place. love walking randomly in search of wants. love walking randomly in search of wants in a nice environment with the rain roaring outside.
met Daryl on the way back. He was talking about the 5 years ago stuff.. yeap. 5 years ago... let's just say some meories are meant to be forgotten.
felt like singing 'santa claus is coming to town' at the top of my voice.. the christmassy feel.
anyway, read an article and it mentioned about those with shiny red nose sit at home on christmas with tissue on one hand.. lolx..
okie. i need to come up with a shopping list to kick start my xmas shopping. then again, i need to curb my spending coz i'm not earning money fast enough. let's just hope the weekends turn out fine.
Plans for a better tomorrow.
Spent the say at IKEA Tampines. Love the place. love walking randomly in search of wants. love walking randomly in search of wants in a nice environment with the rain roaring outside.
met Daryl on the way back. He was talking about the 5 years ago stuff.. yeap. 5 years ago... let's just say some meories are meant to be forgotten.
felt like singing 'santa claus is coming to town' at the top of my voice.. the christmassy feel.
anyway, read an article and it mentioned about those with shiny red nose sit at home on christmas with tissue on one hand.. lolx..
okie. i need to come up with a shopping list to kick start my xmas shopping. then again, i need to curb my spending coz i'm not earning money fast enough. let's just hope the weekends turn out fine.
December 11, 2006
took a pic with a girl whom the whole revenue dept says look like me. or rather, i look like her. then, both of us disagree. well, saw her in person. have yet to see the pic. let's just wait..
Cuzzie's wedding on Sat and the dinner on Sunday at Orchard hotel. The bride and bridegroom looked picture perfect! I wasnt involved in the Sat celebrations coz *long story*...
anyway, the dinner wasnt too bad. the servers for my table all look alike! the couple was soooo sweet i cannot tahan. after the yum seng thingy, we cousins crowd ard for 2nd round of toasting. they say yum seng 3 times each round has a significance and i've forgotten all except the 3rd one. it means zhao sheng gui zi.. so for that 3rd toast we yummmmmm for very long.. coz they're trying for a baby with the piggy zodiac.. great! let's just hope the baby's born in the Libra horoscope too! hee~
really. this is the PERFECT season to get married.
for this season, i did some changes. coloured my hair again, tried brown base with orange (warm orangey color. perfect hint with candle light. not the orange gobstopper orange k! lolx..) highlights all over and purple highlights on my fringe only. i'm only worried about the purple highlights coz she bleached it before dyeing. that means when the color fade, it'll turn my hair to crap. but then, who cares. i'll just let it grow back.
starting anew with colors in my life brings back some level of confidence. u know u really was in a really distasteful phase in life when u experienced the feeling of confidence boost, sudden happiness or reduced negative moods. it's as if that is not the kind of life worth living. with that, i can say i feel good at all times, even when i wake up in the morning with a big zit. i am pretty, pretty confident. lolx. when u feel good, things fall nicely in place. i can feel myself glowing, glowing, glowing... glowing like a candle in the dark... maybe becoz u feel good, u want to look good, so that's how one good thing leads to another. and when u feel and look good, a few compliments wont hurt. and compliments are ego boosters.. that will ultimately raise your happiness level.
so see. the magic of colors.
thank god for this magical season. season of love and sharing.
Cuzzie's wedding on Sat and the dinner on Sunday at Orchard hotel. The bride and bridegroom looked picture perfect! I wasnt involved in the Sat celebrations coz *long story*...
anyway, the dinner wasnt too bad. the servers for my table all look alike! the couple was soooo sweet i cannot tahan. after the yum seng thingy, we cousins crowd ard for 2nd round of toasting. they say yum seng 3 times each round has a significance and i've forgotten all except the 3rd one. it means zhao sheng gui zi.. so for that 3rd toast we yummmmmm for very long.. coz they're trying for a baby with the piggy zodiac.. great! let's just hope the baby's born in the Libra horoscope too! hee~
really. this is the PERFECT season to get married.
for this season, i did some changes. coloured my hair again, tried brown base with orange (warm orangey color. perfect hint with candle light. not the orange gobstopper orange k! lolx..) highlights all over and purple highlights on my fringe only. i'm only worried about the purple highlights coz she bleached it before dyeing. that means when the color fade, it'll turn my hair to crap. but then, who cares. i'll just let it grow back.
starting anew with colors in my life brings back some level of confidence. u know u really was in a really distasteful phase in life when u experienced the feeling of confidence boost, sudden happiness or reduced negative moods. it's as if that is not the kind of life worth living. with that, i can say i feel good at all times, even when i wake up in the morning with a big zit. i am pretty, pretty confident. lolx. when u feel good, things fall nicely in place. i can feel myself glowing, glowing, glowing... glowing like a candle in the dark... maybe becoz u feel good, u want to look good, so that's how one good thing leads to another. and when u feel and look good, a few compliments wont hurt. and compliments are ego boosters.. that will ultimately raise your happiness level.
so see. the magic of colors.
thank god for this magical season. season of love and sharing.
December 02, 2006
Counting down.
Just 4 more days, 3 more papers, 2 trips to school and i can look forward to 1 wedding function.
I have a million and one thing to do by the end of this year.
I badly need to clear my cupboards, which are filled with poly notes and gift boxes, notebooks and what not.
I need to clean my dresser- half filled with dust.
I need to clean my fridge to sort of try to prolong its life.
I need to search for a new blog skin and do the half-yearly modification.
I need to clear my mailbox.
I need to...
I need to...
I need to...
AND before i start on any of the above NEED-TOs,
I REALLY need to start revising my notes. and damn. that's the only thing i dun want to.
Just 4 more days, 3 more papers, 2 trips to school and i can look forward to 1 wedding function.
I have a million and one thing to do by the end of this year.
I badly need to clear my cupboards, which are filled with poly notes and gift boxes, notebooks and what not.
I need to clean my dresser- half filled with dust.
I need to clean my fridge to sort of try to prolong its life.
I need to search for a new blog skin and do the half-yearly modification.
I need to clear my mailbox.
I need to...
I need to...
I need to...
AND before i start on any of the above NEED-TOs,
I REALLY need to start revising my notes. and damn. that's the only thing i dun want to.
November 29, 2006
This is the funniest comic strip i've seen in sometime.
Aint in the mood for mugging. I'm so going to flunk my Econs. I totally understand the sense of helplessness now. The questions running through my head but my hands dont know how to coordinate. My fingers on the calculator but dunno what to input. My thoughts racing, aimless and on the verge of giving up. i can hear the soft tapping of calculators everywhere ard me. I guess i'm getting paranoid. But that doesnt explain the lack of preparation for the paper and the fact that i'm so screwed that the best i can hope for is a C. It's so demoralising and being my first semester, it isnt really a very good start. Plus Considering yesterday's paper was a flop as well. For the two 35 marks questions, i wrote like 2 pages each. the booklet is 10 pages and the girl in fornt of me took 2 booklets! i wonder what she's writing. her hands never stop moving! and i blame myself for not being focus enough. it's so crap. the place is errie. No one left the hall before time's up. all of them stayed till the last minute. Everyone is so discipline, so determine to do their best, i can feel the difference.
oh well, i guess i really am paranoid. and it sucks sitting thru the paper feeling crappy. I cant stop sneezing and i cant breathe well coz of my stupid nose. my eyes cant seem to open properly coz i ant stop sneezing and i finally succumb to temptation and took medicine. i hate this feeling of weakness. damn. shldnt hav gone to the BBQ last saturday. guess it's the food. i had too large a serving.
my sis's prom tonight. at mandarin. mine was 4 years ago. the fun, walking in town in the middle of the night, chatting in the hotel room, phototaking, yes. phototaking.
November 24, 2006
There's this article from Voices, Today, dated 22 Nov titled Dying For Love.
The writer ended the article with "If all this strikes a painfully familiar chord with you, I would suggest you start by finding out your grandparents' names. I only found out my grandfather's name when he died- and I never told him how much he meant to me."
Have we all acquired the same mindset that names aint important if you remember and know someone as a person? or that since life's expectancy is supposed to be an average of 80 so for whatever age that he/she is lower, we still have time? what an illusion. Time is never on our side.
This week is granparents' week. Have you done anything? anything at all? I did.
The writer ended the article with "If all this strikes a painfully familiar chord with you, I would suggest you start by finding out your grandparents' names. I only found out my grandfather's name when he died- and I never told him how much he meant to me."
Have we all acquired the same mindset that names aint important if you remember and know someone as a person? or that since life's expectancy is supposed to be an average of 80 so for whatever age that he/she is lower, we still have time? what an illusion. Time is never on our side.
This week is granparents' week. Have you done anything? anything at all? I did.
November 22, 2006
November 20, 2006
Study week is here and is the best time to study (YEAH RIGHT!). Ended up doing all the want-tos and returning home 6 hours later AND 150 bucks lighter in my pocket. Spent yet another day reading like 2 chapters of the lecture notes, out of the 13 that i'm supposed to UNDERSTAND.
Was told that human's fate and personality undergo a change every 5 years or so. But mine didn't seem to. I did that DISC thing twice and both yield the same results. This Enneagram thingy is the same. I am type FIVE- the Observers.
Was told that human's fate and personality undergo a change every 5 years or so. But mine didn't seem to. I did that DISC thing twice and both yield the same results. This Enneagram thingy is the same. I am type FIVE- the Observers.
Here are the results:
Observers have a need for knowledge (NOT really. this applies only to knowledge that i find interesting) and are introverted (as if i dunno), curious (AHEM!), analytical (WOW), and insightful (I didnt know about that).
How to Get Along with Me
- Be independent, not clingy.
- Speak in a straightforward and brief manner.
- I need time alone to process my feelings and thoughts.
- Remember that If I seem aloof, distant, or arrogant, it may be that I am feeling uncomfortable.
- Make me feel welcome, but not too intensely, or I might doubt your sincerity.
- If I become irritated when I have to repeat things, it may be because it was such an effort to get my thoughts out in the first place.
- don't come on like a bulldozer.
- Help me to avoid my pet peeves (LOLX): big parties, other people's loud music, overdone emotions, and intrusions on my privacy.
What I Like About Being a Five
- standing back and viewing life objectively
- coming to a thorough understanding; perceiving causes and effects
- my sense of integrity: doing what I think is right and not being influenced by social pressure (YEAH! ^.^v)
- not being caught up in material possessions and status (hopefully)
- being calm in a crisis ( this i'm not so sure. i am NOT that calm in a crisis)
What's Hard About Being a Five
- being slow to put my knowledge and insights out in the world
- feeling bad when I act defensive or like a know-it-all
- being pressured to be with people when I don't want to be
- watching others with better social skills, but less intelligence or technical skill, do better professionally (yeap. why shldnt people who work hard derserve better? But there's no denying social skills are more important in life.)
Fives as Children Often
- spend a lot of time alone reading, making collections, and so on
- have a few special friends rather than many
- are very bright and curious and do well in school (NOT TRUE. I am so NOT curious and didnt do well in primary school either)
- have independent minds and often question their parents and teachers (parents YES. teachers NO. NOw i regret. Shld've bombard my teachers with a million and one questions to make their career more interesting! haa)
- watch events from a detached point of view, gathering information
- assume a poker face (TRUE!) in order not to look afraid
- are sensitive; avoid interpersonal conflict
- feel intruded upon and controlled and/or ignored and neglected (yeap. it's as if no matter what they do, there's sth that's always lacking.. Bad attitude i know, comparisions and more comparisons)
November 19, 2006
Some time-out ytd.
Was rather pissed with myself for sleeping in till the late afternoon and waking up for diner instead of breakfast. Very angry at myself for not having done anything related to the coming exams. So i went to release my pent-up emotions via an efficient outlet. Recharged, and ready to go but NOT in the mugging area. I ended up packing my drawer AND rearranging my notes, which both come up to a HUGE pile. The notes make me so depressed and i wonder how i am able to get started. Tried very hard to recall what i did during the study-week in poly and realised i cant even remember. i think i studied for the last few subjects first and ended off the week with the more recent papers. I THINK. seriously speaking, i think i will sit back and recall all these nonsense AFTER the exams and think - WHAT A JOKE. that is, if i managed to clear everything. and really, i think i'm able to, if i quit blogging and doing things that arent on the top of my prority list right now. Sorry, correction. shld be things that SHOULD NOT be on my priority list right now. But unimportant things seem to get more urgent the more you don't want to think about them. i think it's call relative comparison or sth. So today is sunday, i spent another half a day slacking and will be spending another half day with my aunts and cousins, plus having steamboat for dinner. GOSH~ can life get any better?
Was rather pissed with myself for sleeping in till the late afternoon and waking up for diner instead of breakfast. Very angry at myself for not having done anything related to the coming exams. So i went to release my pent-up emotions via an efficient outlet. Recharged, and ready to go but NOT in the mugging area. I ended up packing my drawer AND rearranging my notes, which both come up to a HUGE pile. The notes make me so depressed and i wonder how i am able to get started. Tried very hard to recall what i did during the study-week in poly and realised i cant even remember. i think i studied for the last few subjects first and ended off the week with the more recent papers. I THINK. seriously speaking, i think i will sit back and recall all these nonsense AFTER the exams and think - WHAT A JOKE. that is, if i managed to clear everything. and really, i think i'm able to, if i quit blogging and doing things that arent on the top of my prority list right now. Sorry, correction. shld be things that SHOULD NOT be on my priority list right now. But unimportant things seem to get more urgent the more you don't want to think about them. i think it's call relative comparison or sth. So today is sunday, i spent another half a day slacking and will be spending another half day with my aunts and cousins, plus having steamboat for dinner. GOSH~ can life get any better?
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)