Heard a colleague's relationship story last week and was affected, somehow.

she was telling us abt her past relationship. the guy came from a well-to-do family with 'good' family background and his parents are very religious. they expect their future daughter-in-law to be 1) very traditional 2) has certain qualification 3) holding a job that is of respect/ esteem (eg: teachers/ lawyers)

the reason why the two of them cannot be together is 1) her highest qualification is a 'N' level cert 2) her job is in some office as a normal front office agent

so i asked a very bold question:
so he broke up with you coz of that?

and i heard a very disappointing answer. the spotlight dimmed.

she continued with 'his parents are paying for all his expenses. his car, his bills, his allowance.'

never felt so disgusted. and i got to know that his current gf is a teacher.
they broke up because of external conditions. because one party succumb to the comfort of life. the lure of temptation.
not because they dun hav feelings for each other.

seems so much like the plot we see so often in drama series. and it sux knowing that the more money and power one has, the less possible it is to gain freedom. to enjoy the simplicity in life.

alright. who am i to comment on stuff like that?

for richness or for love.
can we all take the risk and fall in love instead of risking the love and end up with nothing.

my world hasnt been revolving. it's your worlds that are revolving..

Let's see..

Papa Juliet - thanks to monica. i dun even know where she gets the idea from.
Color of dusk - for as long as i can remember.
Odd numbers - only even number is zero.
Missed my pager number - 93258096, which runs upwards from the bottom-right of the keypad, to downwards right in the middle. pple dun even need to remember my number.
Quite anti social - but sure can yak a lot.
Professional archaeologist - expert at living backwards.
Abudant patience- only for drama series and endless episodes.
Anime lover - cause all troubles will be solved by the end of the episode (maybe even two or three)
Great liking for quotes - only way to steal intelligence to pull off as my own wisdom.
Seemingly the perfect student - the quiet one that pple usually take no notice of coz they dun cause trouble and am not exceptionally bright to gain attention. excellent for me cause i get to do what i want to do and get off trouble, like sleep in class and having short attention span.
Believe when pple say you dream of what you think - cause i can continue interrupted dreams! and that's an achievement! lolx.
Aint an accessory lover - but cant think of a time i'm without them.
The opposite - make mountain out of molehill and make molehill out of mountain.
Hate horror shows - but love the thrill.

that's all i can think of now. more next time when the pink moon is up.

I wish Tania can stop sending me emails and Cheryl can stop giving me calls.
The IMF world bank is giving me a headache though it's like like 4 more months away.

I better start preparing myself with all the nonsense that's coming my way soon. maybe by tomorrow. let's just say i have at least 30 pieces of black and white i can show them in the event that they start the chi-gong style of work, as usual.

and i hope sha dont try to create more problem. i am confused enough. so let's not imagine how tania feels. everytime i spot her name amongst like 100 emails, i'll go.. haizz... so she gets all the attention. dunno whether that's considered good or bad..

seem like i've been messing things up more often recently..
everytime i try to put in more, i get more.. yeah.. crap..

My dad bought me a Sony Ericsson W900i today..

the initial plan was to just go and change his phone numbre to one that is of significance to him and get a new phone for myself 2 months from now.

we ended up staying and buying that sony ericsson phone. to tell the truth, i dislike flashy bulky phones.. but ended up getting one.. and i think it's expensive coz of the recent launch date.

wanted the new samsung phone, for a change of the nokia phone.. but ended up with bigger phone each time i wanted a slimmer one. dunno whether i should laugh or cry. -_-"'

and since i'm not the one paying for it, i shall juz shut up. Hope this phone's worth the money..
at least i have entertainment on my way to work.. juz pray hard that my clumsiness wont cause any major damage.. haizz..

I dread the coming of every May.

It's the season of nowhere and the time of the year where it's not here nor there.

Seems like we're always the fool-ishest in our own stories huh..

Children grow at an amazing speed. all because they have all the time in the world to let their thoughts run wild and allow their lives to revolve around imagination and fantasy.

adults, are chained to everday routine-ness, so much so that even their spare time is spent trying to relieve their stress or to find entertainment to forget the aspect of life that they cant seem to live without.

thus, i aint going to comment on work. coz i wont be able to stop once i start.
shall go on to nonsensical stuff then.

i find it weird. weird that i dont find the recent hype about the election interesting. okay, initially it's quite entertaining.. but after a couple of days, the excitement disappears.. after a week, i'm beginning to feel as if we're slowly turning into a mini Taiwan, with their infamous political scene, though we're not of THAT caliber yet.

seriously speaking, it doesnt matter if the flats are not upgraded, lifts dont stop at every level and that we need more of this and less of that. people in old neighbourhoods live longer because they DON'T have lifts that stop at every single level, making it a necessity to climb stairs everytime they get out of the house. this routine excercise is a great way to keep fit! secondly, if we have lifts that stop at every level, most of us wont be able to know the neighbours who live one level or even two floors down.. i am not saying these are impossible when we have flats with lifts at every level, but there'll be fewer chances.. we are contented, just because it's a way of life. we dont take things for granted. i cant deny that if this is implemented, the result will benefit a lot of people, especially so to those furniture movers. but well, to each his own.

personally, it's not too mch of a big deal whether i'll have greater convenice after 5 years because i have to endure the process of noise pollution and greater irritation that come with removation and upgrading.. it doesnt matter if flats around my area get privatized or we have beautified so and so. been living in that area for so long it's become a part of my life. i like things the way they are right now. everyone can promise great things. i can do so too. but what comes out of it is another story. just like what they always say, we must learn to see the light at the end of every tunnel.. but it may well be the headlights of another train in your case... lolx..

am saying too much aint i? well, coz i am not qualified to vote this time round. gotta wait for another 5 years or so. wait for the progres package that never seem to benefit the underaged.

so this is it. tomorrow is the day. let's hope we dont get rowdy. to whichever party that triump in my area, all the best. not much of a difference who wins coz ultimately, no matter what they proprose, it's for the good of the people. no fear coz S'pore is a safe country. we wont be expecting much of a big hoo-ha outta it coz we still have to upkeep the image of our political field. hee.. =X

red. net. ERP.

1st May is over.

i'm looking forward to 6th May.

wanted to take a long rest at home but being woken up early in the morning by those PAP and WP vans with loudspeakers.. and i still cant believe i allow the temperature to control my emotions.. stayed at homeand fa xiao jie pi qi the whole day.. it's an average of 28-30 degrees and humidity of approximately 77% today... my body condition is driving me nuts.. and i'm going insane..

why cant i have a proper rest on labor's day? geez..

everyone is so looking forward to polling day.. and life should get a little interesting, but it's not.

well, back to more aimless pursuits... cant labor day pass any faster.. i'm extremely irritated at myself, my unreasonable and childish behaviour that stems from whatever it is (i think it's the humidity) . the afternoon nap made me so energised that i feel as if it worsen my condition. i'm beginning to have the urge to snap at every little issue. even the damn rain that is coming. it better be a thunderstorm!!!!!!!!!

ARGH~!!!!~~!!!!~!!!!!!!!!!