ACM =(
QY's Bdae =)

Read this cute metaphor:
the 5 balls in life- work, family, health, friends and spirit.
Imagine juggling all 5 balls in the air.
You'll soon realise that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back.
But the other 4 balls are made of glass. Once drop, they will never be the same again.
so this logic we must understand, and strive for balance in life.


no wonder.. work should always take a backseat in life.

Tian Yu Happy Birthday Odin was what was written on that piece of white chocolate. and the wait staff is really kuku to bring out the plates BEFORE we managed to surprise her with the cake. Like THANKS. A nice gathering nonetheless. oh.. and just picture elmo and lion together.

Haven been sleeping well lately. I wonder if it's my nose (again) or the fact that my bed is facing a half-bodied mirror (esp this month). Or maybe it's just the symptoms of school-related anxiety, which is literally zero as i AM enjoying school thoroughly. Have this on off headache, particularly in the late afternoon.. I think i need aspirin.. or maybe just lots of water and honey to prevent dehydration..

Am so keen to sign up for the Cambodia heartbeat and my enthusiasm level seems to hype up as the deadline draws nearer.. Maybe my holiday is meant for greater things.. stuff that i should do for the greater good of mankind. lolx.. and it is certainly heartening to feel good about doing good. doubles the joy..

and I think i'm missing something pretty big in my life.

No cure for nonexistent problem

The doc told me that it aint a problem, so there's no cure.

That means i'll just have to live with that nonexistent problem for the rest of my life, unless i manage to convince myself that it isnt even a problem in the first place. and how am i supposed to do so given that everyone who knows it thinks it IS a problem.

the funniest thing is that i was told to avoid dusty places. AND as if that needs reminder. like thanks.

I would really love to be more independent.

Let's just say practice makes perfect so I'll just have to start from the ordinary things to get lots of opportunities.

Was in semi-formal attire today. Formal wear is never the same again after going through HM training. Everything doesn't seem right that way.

Footwear- no open toes heels
Simple accessories- Ear studs, no dangling. Definitely no blings
Long sleeved shirt that is like .75 inches out of the blazer?
Striped shirt with solid color suit, never striped for both.
Shirt tucked nicely
Bun up hair
Make up
Professional looking suitcase
Proper posture
Manicured fingernails
A nice smile and lots of
Confidence.

I like it that they're applying what they learnt during etiquette classes. and was kinda shocked that they really did pace their eating speed with the rest of the group so that we can finish our food together. That's very considerate and sensitive, especially the guys and those fast eaters.. and before i forget, HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY SU KEE, the Odin lion!!

All we need is a leap of faith. Leave the rest to luck.

Had a long nice chat with my Dad about his job. Make that a first, and hopefully not the last. I enjoy listening to what he has to say about happenings in his life.. and glad that he is willing to share.. Seems like once your children has grown to an age old enough to include them in your all-so-mighty adult world, understanding what you're saying & feeling and able to provide feedback, then you're really near to reaching or overcoming mid-life crisis..

Maslow is right about putting that at the tip of his hierarchy. Once you get past a certain level, nice-sounding names dont really matter.

and being a parent is tough. being the sole breadwinner of a big family with all your children still schooling and the mortgage loan not fully repaid is even tougher.

so i want to tell my dad:
sometimes all we need is a leap of faith, and leave everything else to luck.

There's a hole in my sidewalk by Portia Nelson

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost, I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in this same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes along time to get out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in.
It is a habit but my eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

I walk down another street.

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I don't know what i want sometimes.
But i know that i want to know what i want.
I know that once i know what i want,
i will be able to get it.
Of course, i may not want what i get when i get it..
But at least i'll know i don't want that!
Then i can move on to something else i don't know if i want..

Ah.. THAT'S PROGRESS..

"Sometimes you just have to take the leap, and build your wings on the way down." -Kobi Yamada

School has officially started and i'm on a roll..

my senior (lolx.. finally a friend older than me in terms of age and educational level!) acknowledged my presence in my GEM lecture. like WOW.. usually pple try to ignore tut mates whom you aint very much acquainted with, especially after like one day of tutorial..

Had my fav New Zealand Ice-cream, which was enough to make my day, followed by some retail therapy.. or rather, shopping indulgence. i'd never have believed myself.. blew an entire week's allowance on some stuff that i guess i wont have much chance of using.. but i am happy.. lolx. so that makes all the difference..

I'm so looking forward to INDO class can.. but i know next to naught.. so let's just hope my 5 hours of tutorial each week helps.. before u know it, i'll be able to converse with my uncle's maid (yeah. like real)..

i'll be helping PL on that SDU thingy that the club came up with. so exciting.. and i'm tempted to go for the HK 3-D trekking trip (if only it isnt so ex.. over $1000 for 3 days!! and i'm broke now.. -_-"') and the Cambodia volunteer program (but we're planning a 2 weeks trip to China in Dec so too bad).. it's like when u have the right attitude and mind, everything just seems to start flowing.. i've never really taken note of stuff like these before.. now it just seems like 24 hours a day aint enough for me.. and that there are simply too many school activities to take part in, too many things to try before time runs out.. am now regretting not trying the CASE competition with Angela.. if not i'll alr be working on a proj before the assignments kick in..

yeah. and GREEN is my favourit-est color now.. lolx..

Phew~ sigh of relief..

I FINALLY cleared my poly CPF tuition loan..

Peeps, my bank acc is officially at rock bottom so please exclude me from luxurious makan fares and such till i find a way to tap into a flow of Yusof Ishak..

Dun ask me how i did it coz i am amazed at myself too.. lolx.. Didnt i say i am an old age Asian who is uncomfortable with debts?

gearing up for school.. I'm so looking forward to the various modules, given that i like half of what i am going to take.. i am confident, so totally unexpected, that i will do what it takes to ensure i have a great semester. but let's just hope my enthusiasm doesnt fluctuates..

I've encountered surprises aplenty this holiday. Just like what i prayed for during my examinations, i really did have a fulfilling and meaningful break. and it is by far the best to date. What would i lose if i cross my line? there's always another line somewhere. I've taken so many risks this time round and realised that it is not at all bad.. the one who risk nothing, has nothing and is nothing.

and i have a feeling the best has yet to come.. let's just hope i'm able to keep my optimism level high enough so that when it dips, i'm still at the average.. dont they use to say that you have to aim for the moon to land amongst the stars?

I think i really have myself to thank. i didnt realise anything more than what i already know. NO. but i was standing on the ledge and decided to leap.

Like thanks.

Art of rejecting flaggers

The annual Flag day was a success. at least to my OG. being in AMK from 0630 till 2100 aint an easy feat. and the fact that i thoroughly enjoyed myself made flag a really meaningful event. People donated generously. My max was 10 bucks and i had a good many $2, given the charity situation recently, i thought we did great.

I had a few good laughs about the way people reject or try to siam flaggers. I told this auntie "Notes are accepted and greatly appreciated" when she told me that "I dont have coins." she stared at me for quite sometime k.. and hasten off looking damn embarrassed. some nice people saw me at 8pm still flagging and donated additional coz according to them, i was hardworking.. Was chatting with some old friends, schoolmates and alumni, some of them graduated years back and some recently. Some fellow schoolmate was saying "see u ard" when i dont even know the faculty. some other was cracking jokes with me under the hot sun.. Another senior was telling me he has been looking out for Bizaders since morning and only managed to see ONE, which is me. lolx.. another came over and talked to me while waiting for his transport. everyone is excited about flag and confident that we're going to win this year (again). yeah. i'm confident of that too. given our enthu level. sure win.

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Went Marina Bay for NDP 2007 with Ching ytd..
THANKS FOR THE TIX GIRL! AND HELP ME SAY THANKS TO GX TOO!

NDP rox can. I missed singing to the national day songs loud and in high spirits.. I love to see a sea of red and everyone (almost) gathered at a common place and knowing practically all the songs be it chinese, english, malay or tamil. Love having the renamed Kallang-Marina wave. the goody bag, the fireworks, the effects and such.. i love the moment(s) where i feel that i belong, truly.

The 3D defence thingy felt like what someone planned to show to the rest how much s spent on the NECESSITIES and some great reasons for doing so.. I cant deny they werent of some top notch equip. and the air thingy saluting is kinda cool.. the thing tt looks much like a hovercraft got me quite interested but other better things caught my attention..

The over friendly uncles sitting beside Ching was a little too enthu.. and i received smses from friends asking if i went for the NDP @ Marinabay yesterday.. lolx..

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Thanks to Winnie for inviting us over to ur place.. Guess we made a mess AND helluva noise.. I love her massage chair and garden swing, not to forget her Pooh bear filled belongings and room.. Citadels is fun IF i dun get killed or robbed so often. and i am absolutely jealous of her OPEL automobile can. I was gazing at the car at the MRT station while waiting for her to come fetch me and didnt notice that that car was hers. Like OMG lor.. So jealous.. Grr...

We stayed up the entire night playing games.. and they never fail to amaze me with their super ability of staying up the entire night one day after FLAG plus continuing games all the way till the following day's afternoon. like WOw.. i cant even deny that i'm old.. or convince myself to believe that i'm as young as them.. cant take all that late nights and alcohol and intellectual games in the middle of the night when ur brain is supposed to be at it's most lax stage..

I'm glad i took the initiative. Never look back since..

On to only 4 modules this semester. Only 4 modules and i bidded for Bahasa Indonesian!!!!!! i'm so looking forward to sprouting Indo can.. lolx.. so i can pass off as malay if need be.. wahaa

I was asked if I am a BBA senior, year 3.

I have no idea if I should be elated or sad. Like what they say, I have the disposition of a year 3 student. Then again, I'm afraid they missed out the other side of me.

Serious sleeping disorder. Guess i have to start monitoring my condition.. They have been asking when i can stop sleeping at every possible moment. and i wonder just when they can stop trying to video me sleeping and treat that as entertainment. laughs.. i guess if i were them, i would've done the same thing and laugh at myself while watching someone being video-ed sleeping..

Let's pray that i get my modules this bidding round. I've never gotten to bidding at round 2A with only 3 confirmed modules (and i JUST DROP ONE!!) Should i just say that i am optimistic? or maybe i'm just too tired to be bothered.

Flag tomorrow. Look out for pple in PINK and red bands.. Please do your part for charity.. dont attempt to siam.

Ouch

Home sweet home.

Scorched by the blazing sun. I've morphed from the color of a cooked prawn to that of a live soft shell crab. My mom saw me and asked what happened to my chao ta skin. yup. as if i need to do any explanation.

Didn't really participate in the games save for the finale. The OCH trip blew as the MCs seemed really reluctant for us to go AFTER we waited for 4 hours. The self-entertainment sessions were great though, and thanks to Kim for the nice hospitality at KEVII..

The juniors were great. i wish i were in their corhot.. not that i am complaining, but so far i only have one module which i am taking with familiar pple. think i will be polishing my independence skills further this semester. yeap. as if i needed more of that.

Family gathering this week. FINALLY.
Grandma got to be chauffeured by me,
grandpa still cant get over the K episode,
i got my dad irritated by my reckless driving skills,
and i am happier just being present today..

To more rest and relaxation before the sch term.
Cheers, to a better tomorrow.