Some days the trail of thoughts that follows on board 151 drives me nuts. I just keep thinking of stuff that loops endlessly till my mind gets too tired and drift off.
Today was stuff on the additional year or years some people spent before entering the rat race.
I am a year behind some people in this aspect, but never consider that as a 'waste.' somehow once we hit polytechnic, age becomes this meaningless figure that is not attached to life. No one notices, and no one cares. We start on a clean slate, and it's just the same as uni. in fact, i feel very much disgusted with myself letting my thoughts run on the batch of poly yr ones born in the year 92 which seemingly make me seem like some old hag left forgotten at the end of the world. It's a stupid random thought and i couldnt help but felt irritated.
Sadly today was just one of those days that i loathe the journey to school and back. The scorching sun that glares through the tinted glass no matter which side i choose to sit, the rumbling of the bus with the stupid engine burning the soles of my feet, the jerking movement that never fail to start and end with this sound that seems as if something is steaming and going to boil over, the sickening feeling of being stuck in a traffic jam during peak hours and the lack of adequate personal space for the long journey side, front and back, on top of many others.
and i'm glad some days i have it easy.
January 20, 2009
December 29, 2008
I keep wanting to stay at home and lax the days away.
Ever since I'm back from korea, I don't recall being among the crowds save for xmas eve. Even then we were seated very comfortable in a quiet restaurant AWAY from people milling about doing last minute shopping.
Somehow the trip seemed so surreal, it's as if I've never been away in the first place. and the only way i can convince myself that I indeed spent a good 100 days away from home in a foreign land with peers that I'll treasure and memories that I'll hold dear for a lifetime is the pictures I snapped. But that too, risks being taken away from me forever as my laptop crashed (yes, sadly) the second last week prior to returning and is currently in ICU and my data has a possibility of being erased forever. If those are gone, I shall have to bid farewell to the pictures of Tok, Fairbanks, Anchorage, Seaward, Vegas and Seattle. the best part? I was the unofficial photographer of our WAT trip and I have yet to pass the pics to Pam & Jo.
Right now i missed wrapping myself up in warm clothing and sipping latte not minding the time ticking by and talking about random stuff. I miss Seoul, and all the more i miss everyone. =(
Ever since I'm back from korea, I don't recall being among the crowds save for xmas eve. Even then we were seated very comfortable in a quiet restaurant AWAY from people milling about doing last minute shopping.
Somehow the trip seemed so surreal, it's as if I've never been away in the first place. and the only way i can convince myself that I indeed spent a good 100 days away from home in a foreign land with peers that I'll treasure and memories that I'll hold dear for a lifetime is the pictures I snapped. But that too, risks being taken away from me forever as my laptop crashed (yes, sadly) the second last week prior to returning and is currently in ICU and my data has a possibility of being erased forever. If those are gone, I shall have to bid farewell to the pictures of Tok, Fairbanks, Anchorage, Seaward, Vegas and Seattle. the best part? I was the unofficial photographer of our WAT trip and I have yet to pass the pics to Pam & Jo.
Right now i missed wrapping myself up in warm clothing and sipping latte not minding the time ticking by and talking about random stuff. I miss Seoul, and all the more i miss everyone. =(
December 27, 2008
December 12, 2008
December 11, 2008
December 09, 2008
I've drank at least 10 cups of latte in the past 3 weeks from various cafes, so much so that I think i'm addicted to caffeine. It snowed heavily last night and we were out happily enjoying the weather. This guy saw the 4 of us looking so damn excited and he asked "Is this the first time you've seen snow?" and when our replies were unanimously positive, his second qn "Are you all from SINGAPORE?" muahaha..
I enjoy the snowing process but dislike the slippery floor and the weather condition the day after. I slided to school this morning feeling like I'm skating with shoes and that any uphill is going to kill
me just the same as a downslope. Thank God I survived. and Thank God for skype.
I enjoy the snowing process but dislike the slippery floor and the weather condition the day after. I slided to school this morning feeling like I'm skating with shoes and that any uphill is going to kill
me just the same as a downslope. Thank God I survived. and Thank God for skype.
December 07, 2008
The constant negative temperature makes me a little emo lately.
Flurries outside my window with the sun glaring far behind, comfort music from the 90s playing softly from my laptop and the consistent engine rumbling of the heater make time go at half the rate it is supposed to. and when your world slows down, somehow everything gets magnifies and clear as keanu reeves avoiding the bullets in matrix.
I think it might be the numbing of ones senses thanks to winter and partly coz I've 2 weeks more of freedom and total independent (well, besides social support from KU khakis) left before i depart taking with me the good memories of this trip, that makes me so sensitive to my surroundings. Or maybe it's simply cause the year is coming to an end.
I'm missing my sunny island. the place where I know I'd want to return even if I have the chance to go to the moon. Like i mentioned before, you'll know where you're supposed to be cause nationality is based on where your heart belongs and not where your body happened to be born.
I think there's a need to keep reminding myself that 2008 has been a great year, much better than what i could have hoped for, ever. There is a need to reinforce the positivity so that I don't get too comfortable with all that i have and forget about giving thanks for all that I've received.
and right now i want to survive the cool winter in Seoul and return to the summer in Singapore.
Flurries outside my window with the sun glaring far behind, comfort music from the 90s playing softly from my laptop and the consistent engine rumbling of the heater make time go at half the rate it is supposed to. and when your world slows down, somehow everything gets magnifies and clear as keanu reeves avoiding the bullets in matrix.
I think it might be the numbing of ones senses thanks to winter and partly coz I've 2 weeks more of freedom and total independent (well, besides social support from KU khakis) left before i depart taking with me the good memories of this trip, that makes me so sensitive to my surroundings. Or maybe it's simply cause the year is coming to an end.
I'm missing my sunny island. the place where I know I'd want to return even if I have the chance to go to the moon. Like i mentioned before, you'll know where you're supposed to be cause nationality is based on where your heart belongs and not where your body happened to be born.
I think there's a need to keep reminding myself that 2008 has been a great year, much better than what i could have hoped for, ever. There is a need to reinforce the positivity so that I don't get too comfortable with all that i have and forget about giving thanks for all that I've received.
and right now i want to survive the cool winter in Seoul and return to the summer in Singapore.
December 01, 2008
November 29, 2008
November 26, 2008
This blog is almost dead.
Been more than 3 months since i left my sunny island, and barely 3 weeks till my return.
Drifting, drifting drifting knowing that one day i'll return to shore.
Minimal worries about whether my bank acc will hit rock bottom compared to Singapore.
Back home there's always this constant voice telling me not to slack and wait for my bum to become as round as my face and to fully utilise my free time for the acquirement of yusok ishaks so much so that i think my brain has got a mind of its own.
Over here there's absolutely nothing to worry, for i know everything is temporary.
It feels real good to spend money knowing that u'll never have to consider the item in terms of the number of hours you have to exchange for it. it's pretty cool that the people here are so environmentally conscious that u shldnt expect a plastic bag for ur purchases if you are carrying a bag or ur hands are free and that u have to pay for plastic bags in SUPERMARKETS (or at least home plus!) when their streets are lined with trash every night and people spit everywhere. it's amazing how they can smoke then just spat in whatever direction its convenient, especially in the direction of the wind.
I think there's a point in time when u cant help but wonder if u're slowing losing your own culture in the midst of adapting to another. Somedays i'll forget how local food tastes like when i'm having dinner at some restaurant with my friends asking for second helpings and i help myself to tissue on the table like that's what i normally do. i guess when i go back home i'll grumble about the lack of 물 하고휴지 in eateries. and walking along the streets avoiding portholes. i suppose singapore has such an excellent infrastructure that everywhere is accessible and user-friendly. i'll miss seeing girlpower everywhere with horrendously high heels and super mini bottoms at a temperature lower than 5 degrees C. i'll miss seeing hordes of high school girls looking like twins walking hand in hand in a row with their booming voices that can be heard two streets away.
i'll miss the expression on the ahjuumas' faces when we settle our bills telling them "아주맜있어요!!" walking alongside people embracing another culture. and the sad part is that everything is bound to go away for i am but a person trying to fit into another culture, like oil in water.
Been more than 3 months since i left my sunny island, and barely 3 weeks till my return.
Drifting, drifting drifting knowing that one day i'll return to shore.
Minimal worries about whether my bank acc will hit rock bottom compared to Singapore.
Back home there's always this constant voice telling me not to slack and wait for my bum to become as round as my face and to fully utilise my free time for the acquirement of yusok ishaks so much so that i think my brain has got a mind of its own.
Over here there's absolutely nothing to worry, for i know everything is temporary.
It feels real good to spend money knowing that u'll never have to consider the item in terms of the number of hours you have to exchange for it. it's pretty cool that the people here are so environmentally conscious that u shldnt expect a plastic bag for ur purchases if you are carrying a bag or ur hands are free and that u have to pay for plastic bags in SUPERMARKETS (or at least home plus!) when their streets are lined with trash every night and people spit everywhere. it's amazing how they can smoke then just spat in whatever direction its convenient, especially in the direction of the wind.
I think there's a point in time when u cant help but wonder if u're slowing losing your own culture in the midst of adapting to another. Somedays i'll forget how local food tastes like when i'm having dinner at some restaurant with my friends asking for second helpings and i help myself to tissue on the table like that's what i normally do. i guess when i go back home i'll grumble about the lack of 물 하고휴지 in eateries. and walking along the streets avoiding portholes. i suppose singapore has such an excellent infrastructure that everywhere is accessible and user-friendly. i'll miss seeing girlpower everywhere with horrendously high heels and super mini bottoms at a temperature lower than 5 degrees C. i'll miss seeing hordes of high school girls looking like twins walking hand in hand in a row with their booming voices that can be heard two streets away.
i'll miss the expression on the ahjuumas' faces when we settle our bills telling them "아주맜있어요!!" walking alongside people embracing another culture. and the sad part is that everything is bound to go away for i am but a person trying to fit into another culture, like oil in water.
November 19, 2008
The average temperature that i am withstanding outside is like a freaking -4 degrees C.
Caught a conversation between two exchange students at the shuttle bus stop today.
One of them was saying how she really feel for all the students from tropical countries.. and she named a few which i barely rmbr except for Hong Kong. the other person then added something about never getting to experience this transition at our home countries. and yes, Ms. A then suddenly thought of MY sunny island. she said "oh yes, and SINGAPORE!" or maybe it was 'especially Singapore.' i was frozen on the spot trying not to move lest the wind gets into the jacket. Ms. A then said that for her she's quite used to it so she just needed to decide whether "it's cold" so "i need to wear a cap." yeah. for poor sunny islanders we need to check the weather forecast like ten times a day just to see if we should wrap ourselves up like a penguin before we step out of the room.
it is THAT bad. Last night it was -4 degrees C too, but msn weather forecast predicted it felt like -10. and our dearest Mabel and Jackson actually ate ice-cream with gloves on. this is the coldest i've experienced and just when i thought i can survive this, Jackson met Mr. Vomit today and that Korean was telling him that it's going to get EVEN colder. like thanks. now all my optimism got blown away with the cold wind.
lucky for us the weather is going to be slightly warmer for the next few days. i think i'm going to stay in this weekend.
Caught a conversation between two exchange students at the shuttle bus stop today.
One of them was saying how she really feel for all the students from tropical countries.. and she named a few which i barely rmbr except for Hong Kong. the other person then added something about never getting to experience this transition at our home countries. and yes, Ms. A then suddenly thought of MY sunny island. she said "oh yes, and SINGAPORE!" or maybe it was 'especially Singapore.' i was frozen on the spot trying not to move lest the wind gets into the jacket. Ms. A then said that for her she's quite used to it so she just needed to decide whether "it's cold" so "i need to wear a cap." yeah. for poor sunny islanders we need to check the weather forecast like ten times a day just to see if we should wrap ourselves up like a penguin before we step out of the room.
it is THAT bad. Last night it was -4 degrees C too, but msn weather forecast predicted it felt like -10. and our dearest Mabel and Jackson actually ate ice-cream with gloves on. this is the coldest i've experienced and just when i thought i can survive this, Jackson met Mr. Vomit today and that Korean was telling him that it's going to get EVEN colder. like thanks. now all my optimism got blown away with the cold wind.
lucky for us the weather is going to be slightly warmer for the next few days. i think i'm going to stay in this weekend.
November 14, 2008
Was on the topic of superficiality with Lynn on the way back from a supposedly fun and amusing place thinking about how shallow MOST people are- and that includes me i suppose.
As mentioned only about ten times in my previous entries, i'm tired of the weightage that so many others put on a piece of flimsy paper that may or may not be worth the investment at the end of the day. Most of the time it's just a visa in the passport. yes. for short term entry.
I can't remember exactly how it started or whether it even has an ending. all i know is that the journey is still the most important throughout.
As mentioned only about ten times in my previous entries, i'm tired of the weightage that so many others put on a piece of flimsy paper that may or may not be worth the investment at the end of the day. Most of the time it's just a visa in the passport. yes. for short term entry.
I can't remember exactly how it started or whether it even has an ending. all i know is that the journey is still the most important throughout.
November 08, 2008
rubbish
The KUBS scholarship is in, finally.
That means shopping, and the rate of reducing moolah.
Aint sure if i will be able to keep up with the no need to think thrice or a million times before buying rule. and whether my bank account can sustain my buying behaviour this season.
Can't get the cadbury song out of my mind recently.. the 'wouldn't it be nice' advertisement. yep, wouldnt it be nice if i have... ... ... but so far i'm thankful for all that i've gotten.. so forget about those if-onlys and should-have-beens..
Went to this famous samgyetang restaurant at Tosokchon today with a buddy of Mabel's boyfriend's friend who was here on exchange last fall. sometimes quality of food is directly proportionate to the ka ching at the end of the meal. a nice change compared to the usual cosy homey relatively cheaper restaurants. tonic for the cold weather, something that warms the heart.. ginseng in actual fact.
a million things to do in 3 weeks and none accomplished. like how efficient can i be when i have all my weekends packed in addition to the outings on weekdays? this week i've been out 4 days out of 5 and will be going jalan-jalaning tomorrow before the hair appointment and we're going nami island on Sunday. partly because it's the place where winter sonata was filmed, but personally it's the longing to see an island in autumn where the leaves are falling. cycling around the place with the loose leaves ruffling below when the wheels go round and round. having great company and laughing in the wind. i guess that's as close as i can get to a fairytale? reminds me of the film what dreams may come. if only everything is so magical.
Right now i am a little irritated with the stupid heater which switches off every 5-10 mins or so after blowing warm air coz the organisation is extremely environmentally conscious and wants to save the earth! (as if! more like save electricity coz heating is expensive.) so when it's like 6 degrees c outside the freaking heater suka suka on and then off so tell me who would want to get out of bed like 50 times a night to RE-on the heater? smart move. i wont. for i can snuggle under that not-so-warm but can-still-make-it blanket and hug my bolster tight. yep. that's how i get through the night. and i foresee that the heater utilisation time wont increase anytime soon. time to get a quilt?
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That means shopping, and the rate of reducing moolah.
Aint sure if i will be able to keep up with the no need to think thrice or a million times before buying rule. and whether my bank account can sustain my buying behaviour this season.
Can't get the cadbury song out of my mind recently.. the 'wouldn't it be nice' advertisement. yep, wouldnt it be nice if i have... ... ... but so far i'm thankful for all that i've gotten.. so forget about those if-onlys and should-have-beens..
Went to this famous samgyetang restaurant at Tosokchon today with a buddy of Mabel's boyfriend's friend who was here on exchange last fall. sometimes quality of food is directly proportionate to the ka ching at the end of the meal. a nice change compared to the usual cosy homey relatively cheaper restaurants. tonic for the cold weather, something that warms the heart.. ginseng in actual fact.
a million things to do in 3 weeks and none accomplished. like how efficient can i be when i have all my weekends packed in addition to the outings on weekdays? this week i've been out 4 days out of 5 and will be going jalan-jalaning tomorrow before the hair appointment and we're going nami island on Sunday. partly because it's the place where winter sonata was filmed, but personally it's the longing to see an island in autumn where the leaves are falling. cycling around the place with the loose leaves ruffling below when the wheels go round and round. having great company and laughing in the wind. i guess that's as close as i can get to a fairytale? reminds me of the film what dreams may come. if only everything is so magical.
Right now i am a little irritated with the stupid heater which switches off every 5-10 mins or so after blowing warm air coz the organisation is extremely environmentally conscious and wants to save the earth! (as if! more like save electricity coz heating is expensive.) so when it's like 6 degrees c outside the freaking heater suka suka on and then off so tell me who would want to get out of bed like 50 times a night to RE-on the heater? smart move. i wont. for i can snuggle under that not-so-warm but can-still-make-it blanket and hug my bolster tight. yep. that's how i get through the night. and i foresee that the heater utilisation time wont increase anytime soon. time to get a quilt?
October 31, 2008
Happy Birthday Lynn!!
When i was her age, i thought everything was impossible. At least unachievable within a short time frame. Looking back at the past year, it's amazing how the-journey-of-a-thousand-miles-begins-with-a-single-step makes all the difference.
and at the same time feeling how easy it is for everything to go away.
When i was her age, i thought everything was impossible. At least unachievable within a short time frame. Looking back at the past year, it's amazing how the-journey-of-a-thousand-miles-begins-with-a-single-step makes all the difference.
and at the same time feeling how easy it is for everything to go away.
October 30, 2008
Late entry
Should have blogged the Wednesday the week after my birthday. But then there's mid-terms (out of which i missed one module's exam) followed by the Jeju trip right after. After coming back there's just tons of things to do like laundry, interim report and uploading of pictures which took forever.
Rewinding back to the time just after my last entry, i went to bed just before dawn thinking that nothing in the world can stop me from indulging the entire Saturday doing whatever that pleases me and then start revising for my papers. i dragged myself out of bed before noon feeling that it's going to be just like any normal day. then WH called to ask me to pass her chocolate biscuits which she left with us the night before so she could have it for lunch. i went to our usual meeting place looking like a walking zombie- sleepy eyes, super messy hair and damn cui sleeping attire.. rang her doorbell but the intercom refuses to connect to her suite. our dear PL called from the 5th flr and asked what i was doing upstairs coz WH is at the 4th flr. seriously i didnt suspect a thing. and yes i got the biggest surprise i could ever ask for in my life.
you know the kind of lightheaded-ness shortly after you wake up and certain things happen that makes you wonder if you're still dreaming. yes, i've been there. and he still asked why i asked 'why are you here'.. someone told me he got a company retreat till saturday mid-day. hur hur.. but nonetheless it should be clear how happy i was. right? ^.^
The rest of the surprise i shall leave out. For those moments are mine to keep. ^_^
Rewinding back to the time just after my last entry, i went to bed just before dawn thinking that nothing in the world can stop me from indulging the entire Saturday doing whatever that pleases me and then start revising for my papers. i dragged myself out of bed before noon feeling that it's going to be just like any normal day. then WH called to ask me to pass her chocolate biscuits which she left with us the night before so she could have it for lunch. i went to our usual meeting place looking like a walking zombie- sleepy eyes, super messy hair and damn cui sleeping attire.. rang her doorbell but the intercom refuses to connect to her suite. our dear PL called from the 5th flr and asked what i was doing upstairs coz WH is at the 4th flr. seriously i didnt suspect a thing. and yes i got the biggest surprise i could ever ask for in my life.
you know the kind of lightheaded-ness shortly after you wake up and certain things happen that makes you wonder if you're still dreaming. yes, i've been there. and he still asked why i asked 'why are you here'.. someone told me he got a company retreat till saturday mid-day. hur hur.. but nonetheless it should be clear how happy i was. right? ^.^
The rest of the surprise i shall leave out. For those moments are mine to keep. ^_^
October 18, 2008
The double 2 club
I turned 22 in Seoul. Despite it being my very first birthday overseas, the presence of friends who took time off to celebrate with me makes this an extremely memorable affair and all of a sudden anam-dong feels like a home away from home. We first went to this cheena restaurant with red lanterns and had a scrumptious dinner. Martin sang me a German birthday song (sweet lyrics! and thanks to him for the translation), Tien Kwan sang me half a Cantonese birthday song plus the zoo version, Xiang Feng sang me a chinese one together with China national anthem (thanks to Jean's prompting), Samuel sang me a liang po po hokkien song (the local flavour! brought a piece of Singapore to me), and the rest managed half a korean birthday song on top of the normal happy birthday song. on top of that, Jean got someone she knows to speak to me over the phone in dialect (cant rmbr whether it's hokkien or teochew) wishing me happy birthday and yes. i had a conversation with a stranger in DIALECT, on the eve of my birthday, in a chinese restaurant, IN KOREA!
All these remind me of the phrase “在家靠父母，出外靠朋友。”
I'm so glad we met here, thousands of miles away from our hometown.
Somehow on my 22nd birthday i feel so much more mature compared to when i was 21. I wonder if it's the experiences i accumulated through these 12 months, or that being on foreign land makes me more independent henceforth more sensitive to my surroundings. or maybe it's simply because everything is unexpected. like we were all having so so so much fun that i almost forgotten that it was going to be my birthday in a couple of hours. like living in the moment, for the moment. it's like a huge huge bonding session with people from all over, people that I never thought i'd meet 2 months ago.
We proceeded to Star Beer to chill after dinner. Aishah brought paris hilton along and we sat there trying to get other people high. 6 litres of beer plus peach soju as well as normal soju. chatting about everything and anything while trying to get our faces into every single photo. that was really really fun. After drinks we headed over to Lev's birthday party at another pub. His was another grand affair with lots of international students, mainly from Europe.. The finale of the day was 노래방. we were practically screaming throughout the hour, with the tambourines ringing plus aishah and kian hong dancing in front and the rest crazily laughing at the back..
I came back to find my besties' video clips in youtube. I can imagine them recording that in vivo with people staring. Hey girls.. i want that cake k!! thanks for the surprise.. =) though i don't really understand the part about the card and open-in-sequence thingy that QY mentioned.. lolx.. i suppose the postman must have lost his way somehow coz there's no card.. will check the postbox tomorrow.. =) thanks for the birthday song girls! and the yummy looking cake that i didnt get to eat!! =(
My dad called my cell on his way back from work asking me how everything was and wishing me many happy returns of the day. It was really unexpected so i was really really glad.. and my phone bill prolly will hit its all time peak next month.
Birthday has never been a yearly event for celebration but if i can reflect on all the above mentioned and feel such joy and happiness from the deepest of my heart, i think it is indeed special.
For all the friends that has walked with me and are walking along me, THANK YOU.
To Mummy, a bigger THANK YOU! for all that you've done as well as the moment in time we shared 22 years ago. I LOVE YOU!! ^.^
With this i put a stop to my fourth 18th birthday and embark on a new journey seeking the number 23.
All these remind me of the phrase “在家靠父母，出外靠朋友。”
I'm so glad we met here, thousands of miles away from our hometown.
Somehow on my 22nd birthday i feel so much more mature compared to when i was 21. I wonder if it's the experiences i accumulated through these 12 months, or that being on foreign land makes me more independent henceforth more sensitive to my surroundings. or maybe it's simply because everything is unexpected. like we were all having so so so much fun that i almost forgotten that it was going to be my birthday in a couple of hours. like living in the moment, for the moment. it's like a huge huge bonding session with people from all over, people that I never thought i'd meet 2 months ago.
We proceeded to Star Beer to chill after dinner. Aishah brought paris hilton along and we sat there trying to get other people high. 6 litres of beer plus peach soju as well as normal soju. chatting about everything and anything while trying to get our faces into every single photo. that was really really fun. After drinks we headed over to Lev's birthday party at another pub. His was another grand affair with lots of international students, mainly from Europe.. The finale of the day was 노래방. we were practically screaming throughout the hour, with the tambourines ringing plus aishah and kian hong dancing in front and the rest crazily laughing at the back..
I came back to find my besties' video clips in youtube. I can imagine them recording that in vivo with people staring. Hey girls.. i want that cake k!! thanks for the surprise.. =) though i don't really understand the part about the card and open-in-sequence thingy that QY mentioned.. lolx.. i suppose the postman must have lost his way somehow coz there's no card.. will check the postbox tomorrow.. =) thanks for the birthday song girls! and the yummy looking cake that i didnt get to eat!! =(
My dad called my cell on his way back from work asking me how everything was and wishing me many happy returns of the day. It was really unexpected so i was really really glad.. and my phone bill prolly will hit its all time peak next month.
Birthday has never been a yearly event for celebration but if i can reflect on all the above mentioned and feel such joy and happiness from the deepest of my heart, i think it is indeed special.
For all the friends that has walked with me and are walking along me, THANK YOU.
To Mummy, a bigger THANK YOU! for all that you've done as well as the moment in time we shared 22 years ago. I LOVE YOU!! ^.^
With this i put a stop to my fourth 18th birthday and embark on a new journey seeking the number 23.
October 09, 2008
About this period in time every year, the voice inside my mind will surface. And as the years go, the voice gets louder and i get extremely sensitive to my existence. Like questioning who i am, what i want and whether i am on the right track. As far as i am concern, i'm all good and set for whatever that comes. But as with all things invisible, there's always a desire to quantify and tangibalise.
Reward for good behaviour measured against amount of money spent on materialistic stuff that actually doesnt really matter but serve it's purpose simply because of the level of difficulty in obtaining it.
This season i thought up a list of wants as proof to myself that i'm just like any other people.
I want to get the twin stars that i lost a couple of months back.
I want a new timekeeper to remind myself that life is short.
I want/ need to replace my tool of communication though i'm kinda sad that it's plague with sickness and almost impossible for regular functions.
I want to obtain a new purse for this is something of years ago and looked as if it's been through many catfights.
Things that i know i can jolly well live without. but somehow at this point in time it seems appropriate for a change.
change. yes. it is the only constant.
Reward for good behaviour measured against amount of money spent on materialistic stuff that actually doesnt really matter but serve it's purpose simply because of the level of difficulty in obtaining it.
This season i thought up a list of wants as proof to myself that i'm just like any other people.
I want to get the twin stars that i lost a couple of months back.
I want a new timekeeper to remind myself that life is short.
I want/ need to replace my tool of communication though i'm kinda sad that it's plague with sickness and almost impossible for regular functions.
I want to obtain a new purse for this is something of years ago and looked as if it's been through many catfights.
Things that i know i can jolly well live without. but somehow at this point in time it seems appropriate for a change.
change. yes. it is the only constant.
October 08, 2008
September 30, 2008
Autumn is officially here, and all i want to say is 秋天别来~
The Japan trip is officially off, unless i struck lottery. that means the chance of me going to 일번is zilch. So we're changing strategy, in order to fulfill expectations with the minimal resources on hand, we're going to somewhere nearer to home. think Asia.
Was counting down the other day. It's only 81 more days till i return to the sunny island. This is my 6th week in Seoul and i am loving it. I love korean food, and i suppose everyone will agree that we'll do better with lower standard of living here. paying 6+ for a simple meal is the norm. i kind of miss the cheap $3/$4 hawker center food and the cheap cheap snacks back home.
i want mee goreng!
The Japan trip is officially off, unless i struck lottery. that means the chance of me going to 일번is zilch. So we're changing strategy, in order to fulfill expectations with the minimal resources on hand, we're going to somewhere nearer to home. think Asia.
Was counting down the other day. It's only 81 more days till i return to the sunny island. This is my 6th week in Seoul and i am loving it. I love korean food, and i suppose everyone will agree that we'll do better with lower standard of living here. paying 6+ for a simple meal is the norm. i kind of miss the cheap $3/$4 hawker center food and the cheap cheap snacks back home.
i want mee goreng!
September 29, 2008
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