Been living in a spaced out zone ever since i got back. have a million and one thing to say about the trip but shant turn this entry into a pensieve like space...
feeling overwhelmed by all the luck that is coming my way recently.. so much so that i fear what is coming my way in the future. rather silly worrying over nothing.. it's like the after-camera-flash effect. exposure to too much brightness can cause ur world to dim..
being wanted is a good feeling.. knowing that u match up to those brighter kids sure make me feel good.. done what i've wanted to show and prove since high school.. tested and proven..
they told me there's a vacancy for a position i've wanted.. executive/ management level. under corporate rather than hotel branch. get to travel quite a fair bit.. fabulous opportunity.. or should i say really a once in a lifetime chance. and what makes me happy is that they'd rather have me than some 'bimbo who cant even work.' but seriously speaking, i'm rather upset with all the labelling of 'bimbos' and such on HTM peeps.. i cant disagree with them coz some of them do portray that impression.. am glad i dont belng to the gang. again, the feeling of being 'ken ding'.. now i know why those mediacorp artistes say it's a priviledge to be 'ken ding'. regardless of whether they get the award or not..
1st day of work i met the Indonesia public holiday.. seems like lady luck is always with me.. only about 1/3 of the workload.. met my Primary school buddy in the bus and had a short chat.. when was the last time i meet up with old friends?
and when will i learn to be contented with what life brings.. to take things in my stride.. to not bother myself with unnecessary burdens that shouldnt be mine to bear in the first place. now, i need some advise.. some wisdom from someone, something. some signage in this directionless world. more gravity to hold things in place.. particularly my thoughts..
i need a friend?
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