Autumn is officially here, and all i want to say is 秋天别来~

The Japan trip is officially off, unless i struck lottery. that means the chance of me going to 일번is zilch. So we're changing strategy, in order to fulfill expectations with the minimal resources on hand, we're going to somewhere nearer to home. think Asia.

Was counting down the other day. It's only 81 more days till i return to the sunny island. This is my 6th week in Seoul and i am loving it. I love korean food, and i suppose everyone will agree that we'll do better with lower standard of living here. paying 6+ for a simple meal is the norm. i kind of miss the cheap $3/$4 hawker center food and the cheap cheap snacks back home.

i want mee goreng!

Personal request

I miss you

Tired, even after 12 hours of sleep. I suppose the fatigue comes from restlessness of being alone in a confined space with nothing much to do except access to the internet and a variety of snack supply.

Today I woke up with the feeling that time is elastic and i have the whole world to myself. I sat in front of my laptop and did the usual aimless clicks on streaming websites, watching shows that i've already seen and viewing the photos that we use to record our experiences. The sun was so glaring in the afternoon and it is always in this kind of setting that makes me feel so alone. like everything seems so insignificant & unanchored, and the world will continue revolving even if i'm not a part of it.

I suppose the grass is always greener on the other side. and being away from home makes me feel like a totally different person. i need a hug. and i want it now.

Recently there were moments where i forgotten that i'm on foreign land.
Life gets so comfortable that it didn't occur to me that in a matter of weeks, all these will go away as with WAT. Liminality. Maybe simply because it's the transition in between periods that make these kind of experiences special, yet distant.

Tok seemed like a quaint story i heard from a friend instead of the extreme lifestyle i've been through last month. and being surrounded by humans blabbering korean is sort of becoming a comfort. It's like gliding on water. Somehow embracing change is exhilarating. especially when you know there is no other way out.

In less than a month's time, i'll be a year older. In barely a year's time i've been through so much. the adventures that i never thought i'd seek and the opportunities that came knocking.. Living life to the fullest. yes. between doing and regretting and regretting not doing, i'll always choose the former.

Things always get better when we think them through logically, and refuse to let emotions rule.

It's my second week in Seoul, and as with all away-from-home experiences, this trip brings a whole lot of time-alone for reflections.

At Alaska Backpackers' Inn, Anchorage, i chanced upon this quote on the wall.

I am not the same having seen the moon from the other side of the world.

I guess being away from the familiarities makes one more grateful, no matter how thankful we might say we are.

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Started going to the gym this week, and hopefully over the weeks to come. Exercising makes me feel healthy and happy. I didnt turn on the TV in front of the machines (yes, they have a LCD TV attached to each treadmill AND bike with numerous channels selection!) today, for somehow the act of having nothing to distract makes the act of exercising more qualitative. Like time somehow became this void un-pegged to any timeline. Let's just hope i'll keep this up instead of going shopping at Insadong, Dongdaemun, Nandaemun or Myeong Dong.