I keep wanting to stay at home and lax the days away.

Ever since I'm back from korea, I don't recall being among the crowds save for xmas eve. Even then we were seated very comfortable in a quiet restaurant AWAY from people milling about doing last minute shopping.

Somehow the trip seemed so surreal, it's as if I've never been away in the first place. and the only way i can convince myself that I indeed spent a good 100 days away from home in a foreign land with peers that I'll treasure and memories that I'll hold dear for a lifetime is the pictures I snapped. But that too, risks being taken away from me forever as my laptop crashed (yes, sadly) the second last week prior to returning and is currently in ICU and my data has a possibility of being erased forever. If those are gone, I shall have to bid farewell to the pictures of Tok, Fairbanks, Anchorage, Seaward, Vegas and Seattle. the best part? I was the unofficial photographer of our WAT trip and I have yet to pass the pics to Pam & Jo.

Right now i missed wrapping myself up in warm clothing and sipping latte not minding the time ticking by and talking about random stuff. I miss Seoul, and all the more i miss everyone. =(

This Christmas I stayed at home popping pills, sleeping, and wondering when I'll get better.

Merry Christmas peeps.

and in case you're thinking... yes I'm back.

Seven

Seven is one of my fav nos, and that is exactly the number of days left in Seoul.

I'm missing someone terribly this season.

I've drank at least 10 cups of latte in the past 3 weeks from various cafes, so much so that I think i'm addicted to caffeine. It snowed heavily last night and we were out happily enjoying the weather. This guy saw the 4 of us looking so damn excited and he asked "Is this the first time you've seen snow?" and when our replies were unanimously positive, his second qn "Are you all from SINGAPORE?" muahaha..

I enjoy the snowing process but dislike the slippery floor and the weather condition the day after. I slided to school this morning feeling like I'm skating with shoes and that any uphill is going to kill
me just the same as a downslope. Thank God I survived. and Thank God for skype.

The constant negative temperature makes me a little emo lately.
Flurries outside my window with the sun glaring far behind, comfort music from the 90s playing softly from my laptop and the consistent engine rumbling of the heater make time go at half the rate it is supposed to. and when your world slows down, somehow everything gets magnifies and clear as keanu reeves avoiding the bullets in matrix.

I think it might be the numbing of ones senses thanks to winter and partly coz I've 2 weeks more of freedom and total independent (well, besides social support from KU khakis) left before i depart taking with me the good memories of this trip, that makes me so sensitive to my surroundings. Or maybe it's simply cause the year is coming to an end.

I'm missing my sunny island. the place where I know I'd want to return even if I have the chance to go to the moon. Like i mentioned before, you'll know where you're supposed to be cause nationality is based on where your heart belongs and not where your body happened to be born.

I think there's a need to keep reminding myself that 2008 has been a great year, much better than what i could have hoped for, ever. There is a need to reinforce the positivity so that I don't get too comfortable with all that i have and forget about giving thanks for all that I've received.

and right now i want to survive the cool winter in Seoul and return to the summer in Singapore.

i think it's the weather, loose leaves circling on uneven floor and eventually being blown away with the dust into the distance, i'm missing home so badly.