-Time out-

connecting with myself. somehow connection via blog space goes haywire. no longer able to enjoy the same impact. found an even better outlet.

recently, i found a way to really hear myself- think aloud to be exact.
it's the only thing i find assuring, knowing that my heart is beating fast because of the high adrenaline level and not due to the rising blood pressure.
it's by far the only activity (i find) that NATO pple (No Action Talk Only) can and will actually do in silence. one which pple can shut up and 'just do it'. no amount of flower language or power sports attire will help you win this one.

i like.

after an extensive one, when u really push urself to the limit, u'll feel sth dying away. i guess that's our will to live. so that's as close i can get/feel, to death. maybe i'll have the same feelings 50 years down the road. or maybe even shorter.

u know it's weird. all negativities fade away. or shld i say they evaporate with the sweat. gone with the wind. lolx. i feel so much better. now i'm looking forward to cheezels and chips as my reward.

opened the door like a burglar today. my sis was sleeping like a log and i didnt bring the keys out. even that, i'm scared i'll get caught. kept looking around praying pple better dun get me in this state with their cameras. but then again, why shld i be scared when i'm entering my house? just that it's in a peculiar way? i guess i'm a pretty good thief. maybe i can consider being a locksmith in future. explore all possibilities.

subtle extrem-ist. maybe.