Grrrrrr

Exactly a year ago, i started my temp job in TMS. 28 Feb. the last day of Feb. Having mixed feelings on this particular day.. Contented coz it's a rainy day, my lessons ended early and econs mid-sem is over. Kinda sad coz unknowingly, i made another leap across memories.. Guilty coz i didnt prepare well enough for the mid-sem today. Exhausted coz i'm still recovering from lack of sleep and sore throat. Unhappy coz i have to prepare for tml's tut and absolutely disgusted at my lack of motivation and that temptations got the better of me. i've decided. to give myself a break. at least till evening. watch some shows, listen to some songs, chat with my mom and sis, enjoy the weather and have a cup of coffee.

so. about a year ago i sat through my last poly exam paper thinking gosh~i'm so gonna miss this feeling..

360 over days later, i'm loathing the end of February.. i'm looking forward to semester break alr. that is, if i managed to do all the below in order in March:
compete my 30% legal assignment
study for my stats mid-term
prepae for legal presentation
prepare for econs presentation
prepare for accounting presentation
hand up my ops mgtmnt assignment
hand up stats project
hand up accounting project

and yes. the main point is, before i do all that, i need to start my research, not to forget the many project meetings before we even start discussing for presenation, complete my survey questionnaire, no. i have to come up with relevant topics first. and before i do all that, i have to make sure i have time to complete ALL my other tutorials. and u're right. i'm screwed. i have YET to start on even ONE of the above.

and beyond that, i need to plan to visit my grandparents. plan to leave time for some rest and relaxation, and not to forget some regular exercise.

oh great. things are getting better. they are turning worse at a slower rate. at least i got them organised. God bless.

feel rejuvenated.

term break is over. so i'm looking forward to semester break. just a couple of weeks more and say yeah to freedom.. that is, after the projects, presentations and exams...before that, 2 mid-term tests.. and i think i better start looking for a job soon.. some temp job for 2-3 months to keep myself busy AND my pockets full during the 3-mth sem break. full for the GSS before the GST hike..

Despite all your rage, you're still just a rat in a cage. Get out of your box.
You will find that influences from other people can cause some serious
transformations in your general frame of mind. Let your belief systems loosen
up, and let them morph into other frames of mind. Consider new ways of living.
Do things to get out of the conventional social construct of how you should live
your life.

yup. maybe i should follow the horoscope advice.. lolx..

yup. ultimate slacking since last Friday. Turn my lifestyle upside down. i wake up well after noon.. and i've been pushing the limit.. woke up at 5pm today, thinking it feels just like 1pm.. woke up with guilt hanging over my head.. finally started on my legal tutorial.. which i spent almost an hour completing and then uploading my answers to the forum for my grpmates.. then i signed into msn.. only to find another grpmate bombarding me with qns on an individual essay due in 2 weeks time. gosh.. i didnt know they're already going steam rolling ahead, leaving me behind.. lolx.. whatever it is, i'm planning to take my time. one step at a time i guess.. 2 mid-term tests coming up..

yup. amazed at my lack of interest in everything. especially sch work. yup. yup. more qns on econs test.. i've been telling pple to relax.. it's only a mid-sem for goodness sake. they shld learn to not take evrything so seriously.. or maybe i am the one who shldnt be indifferent. haa.. so they say i am confident. maybe they sldnt judge a book by its cover. maybe what they didnt see is my apathetic attitude.

Happy CNY!!

i love the way the story starts..

OS... about how life is a game.. and that if you get around stuff (acting) well, keeping a good position without getting hurt, then it'll be easy to reach whatever goals you have..

so the lead actor went about school with all those thoughts about putting in his full effort acting friendly and helpful.. trying to be perfect..

oh great. i think i know what's goig to happen later. just 10 mins into the show and i know how the story will flow.. someone (some pple) will sort of find out, or ruin his plans but they'll become great friends in the end..

then again.. all stories seem to go like that..

This CNY, i stayed at home, or at my cousin's place, watching TV/com or reading.. there's nothing much to do besides munching on stuff anyway..

Char took the morning flight to Perth this morning.. So by now she shld have already settled down... i wished i were on a plane to somewhere, anywhere.. get out of this boring cycle.. This term break is going to be a hellavu long time.. hjkklhcsasertikop;,lmb arhyckfsuojjlnvfasdbo[o'lm nc chfgujpkkn,bjc nbyduyr8upkn
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oh great. i'm going bonkers..

self-criticism that undermines your self-confidence..
so perhaps it's time for you to take more risks.

Did a test and that's the advice i got.. lolx.. maybe it's time to take more risks.. lolx..

This year, besides being thankful of the fact that i'm a chinese and have 2 chances a year for new beginnings, i have little else to be happy and excited about. I'm long over the honeymoon period of slacking and enjoying my days as the deadlies draw near. Besides that, i cant celebrate CNY for 2 years running and i guess tomorrow's reunion dinner will be a weird affair coz my grandpa wont be at the table with us, kicking start a new year. by right, we cant even have a reunion dinner. but seriously, we need to get over things.. so i rejoice that my term break coincides with CNY, even though it seems like the school cheated us of 2 days break.. anyway, this year CNY will be filled with gatherings, shows, gambling and studying.. term tests are right after the break.

My sis got on my nerves.. so i set a login password for my lappie. I warned her so many times NOT to eat and drink ON TOP on my laptop. she disregards all that, claiming that she wont dirty it no matter what, and continue typing away with her dirty fingers! i've been trying hard to be patient.. and i guess 4 months is long enough contamination and forgiveness..

now, she cant use it coz i set a bizzard password. something totally unexpected. well, i surprise myself sometimes..

FYI, i prefer green tea and banana milkshakes to beer anytime, anyday. beer is a social drink. so pls dun make me drink that coz i'll have to deal with the rashes the next morning when some other deal with hangover..
AND...
i still cant seem to get along beyond the surface with some pple.. no matter how hard i try..

My sis got back her Os results today.. That reminds me of the day i went back to collect mine. Wearing the high school U for the last time, sitting in the school hall listening to all those plan-for-your-future talks and the last time sharing your dreams with your high school mates... I remembered the moment they called my name, the feeling when i stood up with hesitation and later with pride, the handshakes, the hugs, the smiles and the tears..

but no matter how hard i try, i cant recall what i did after that. i guess we must have went out for celebration or sth, promising to keep in contact forever... sadly, our forever became never as we got frustrated with only able to get Jas thru tempura maki, some work issues at Sakae, some VCD cover issue, meeting up to go to school issue, and before i forget, MAURICE!

all in all, guess the problem lies in us having the same personality trait.. not enthu enough to take the initiative to organise gatherings and such.. Maybe we tried (a couple of time), and gave up altogether coz of the consecutive failures that led to a pathetic success rate.. Guess we all have more important things in life at that point in time and when we want to turn back time, it's too late..

cant believe it has been 4 years since i graduated.. recalled some of the goals i set when i stood clutching that piece of paper in the all 4 years back.. some of them have been met so maybe i ought to set more?

The new Seiko watch! finally a ladies watch by Seiko. it took them months to come up with and manufacture this!!
Lovely watch that screams individuality. Anyway, my friend was saying that nothing beats the designs from sovil titus.. the left-most one. ~.~ doesn't matter.. to each his own.

met up with Prissy and Eileen... to pass Pris her long overdue birthday present.. she just got back from her Thailand shopping trip!! that made me very jealous.. but well, her work is crazy so i guess she deserves a break.

we lost contact for damn long coz she lost her phone last year and my contacts got zapped recently.. aint able to contact each other without the numbers... so we've been putting off our kbox outing for months.. but that's usually the case... but it's nice to have promises to look forward to..

I'm so looking forward to CNY coz it signifies the start of my term break, which also happens to be the sign for me to get started on my mid-term tests AND projects... This time round, signs are all over, and NEON ones at such...

cheers, to a better tomorrow.

TGIF. It's friday! my rest day.
TGIF- Thank God I'm Female. lolx..

anyway putting all that aside, did u notice the Dove's self-esteem fund? the one targeted at teenagers.. i see ads all over Singapore.. especially the ones with the caption something like '1 in 5 consider plastic surgery' and '15 is the average age of females with eating disorders'... it's great huh.. some organisation has stepped out to attempt to solve this ongoing and growing concern.

School life is finally in place. this semester i find myself a little more enthu compared to last sem and a whole lot more motivated. Let's just pray this stays..