2 glasses of wine

State of blabber.

Happy CNY peeps. This festive season I've mulled over some stuff that I haven been thinking about for ages. Just cause someone sparked off that series of reflection over the weekend.

It never occurred to me that life should be an accumulation of experiences. trying. trying. trying.
To me, it has always been do or do not. So i find myself tongue-tied when others asked. I cant seem to find valid and logical reasons to substantiate what i think, especially when the other party has some G-D logical reasons.

Subtle compliments. I'm not belittling myself but somehow there's always a whole lot of people who i think is better and brighter.

Being commented that i don't share easily. Maybe if you ask, i'll say. maybe i wont. but if something's bugging you, then you should take the initiative. I admit i'm not one who bares her soul to others. But then again, those who knows me well (enough) understands (or at least i choose to believe) .

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Thanks for the card Ching. Just saw it yesterday. I know i haven been putting enough effort for arranging for meet-up sessions and havent really been in contact since the last time we met. What you wrote in the card is so sweet (ants are getting to it) =) and thanks for the appreciation. It means a lot to me. *hugs

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Dreading the coming week, though it's CNY.

i saw someone that looks like Lionel in the dining hall the other day and tried not to stare. He's the only guy that reminds me of flowers. Iris flowers in fact. The 1st 3 mths AJ stint that he tried to pull with the help of the rest of us. I mean, at the very least, we were there to accompany him.

It's getting a little late and i'm a little tipsy. I think i'll feel better if someone can give me a hug. So maybe i should just listen to what others say and get myself attached.

Spinning spinning, spinning. head spinning. Forget what i've said. Wasnt in the right state of mind. Cny rocks. I'm going to stay home as much as possible and nua the holidays away.