Went to support Eve's paino performance on sat night.. there's nothing much to focus on except the fingers so halfway through the concert i started to visualise the right hand talking to the left hand. i can barely stop myself from thinking 'shit, i must be outta my mind'.. lolx..
the right and left hand play different roles. they can be 'saying' different things at the same time and be in a quarrel (creating noise) yet when they somehow manage to produce the wonderful thing we call 'music', then it's like communicating.. the fingers on the left hand play the strong-and-silent-type role and the fingers on the other hand are the active go-getters. anyway, what i want to say besides communicaiton is that in this world, whatever is soothing to your ear is music and anything else is just noise. it applies to others too so what we all have to learn is to look at things from a different perspective. just like a frown. turn it over and you'll find that you're actually smiling..
cheers, to a better tomorrow..
February 27, 2006
February 24, 2006
finished watching episode 8 of 'it started with a kiss'. girls (most of them) fall in love with/admire/like/watever-u-call-it, some intelligent guy.. or some guy that they find witty/street-smart even if they're not too intelligent. i mean, this is logical. who would want some dumbo for a partner?? but then, IF ur significant other happens to be a dumbo, i can be 100% sure that he is dumb in such a cute way that u end up falling in love. right?
someone said:
[认同 ‘男人不坏, 女人不爱’ 的女人明白,
这句子里的 ‘坏’ 男人的反义词,
不是 ‘好’ 男人, 而是 ‘笨’ 男人.]
see. girls can be so easy to understand. lolx.. but guys..
i seriously dun understand..
someone else said this:
[A man admires the woman who makes him think but he keeps away from her.
He likes the woman who makes him laugh.
He loves the woman who hurts him.
But he marries the woman who flatters him.]
do they have brains like tofu? or maybe they think too much.
i guess maybe i am the one who think too much. time for bed.
someone said:
[认同 ‘男人不坏, 女人不爱’ 的女人明白,
这句子里的 ‘坏’ 男人的反义词,
不是 ‘好’ 男人, 而是 ‘笨’ 男人.]
see. girls can be so easy to understand. lolx.. but guys..
i seriously dun understand..
someone else said this:
[A man admires the woman who makes him think but he keeps away from her.
He likes the woman who makes him laugh.
He loves the woman who hurts him.
But he marries the woman who flatters him.]
do they have brains like tofu? or maybe they think too much.
i guess maybe i am the one who think too much. time for bed.
February 23, 2006
yah.. where and when can i start yelling??
Been watching shows from youtube since Tina was telling me 'it started with a kiss' can be found from there.. The complete VCD/DVD set is not out yet. from what i know, it's only PART 1.. so i'm waiting.. asked my bro to check for me when he went to Taiwan but apparently, they didnt visit vcd shops.. dying to watch that show coz of the lead actor.. *sigh..
i dunno whether it's the post exam period, the storyline, or me. but somehow i hate this time when i know there's sth important for me to do yet i dunno what it is, dunno where to start and how to do it. this feeling of helplessness. this unanchored feeling. most of my friends have plans. of what they want to do in life, how they want to proceed. after our poly education, even though we think we chose the wrong course, at the end of it all, AT LEAST they learnt that their passion lies somewhere else and are working hard towards it.. pple have already started looking for jobs, going for interviews, planning their lives. but what i am doing now is simply half wasting my time idling around, hoping that some miracle fall from the sky so that God can give me some good plans for my future.
i have better grades than many of my friends. so what?! they have dreams and sad to say, i think that's more important than pieces of papers with various numbers on them... i finally realise today the reason behind the lack of motivation in my life in whatever i do.
There is motivation only when there are expectations. when i expect nothing, how can i be motivated? i used to work hard in the past so that i can prove myself to those pple who dont believe. and what did i get in the end? applause that even the giver cannot remember, that the receiver doesnt even actually give a damn? sometimes it's like a joke. felt as if someone pointed at the sky and said 'see, a bird flew past.' and then get back to whatever he or she is doing and then nobody thought much about it after that.
I was thinking.. i just need to work for 40 years or so. so long as our lives dont cross in the future, how i will be doing actually makes no difference to anyone else. it's right that i shldnt be bothered about what others think and how they feel but somehow it doesnt seem right. it's as if i am the one not bothered by how my life is going to turn out.. my family, relatives, even my neighbours are concerned on how i'm going to move on from here.
PLEASE. dont let my life be a 400m stadium track. at the end of it all, i dont want to realise that i'll end up where i started.. coz i'm not prepared to know that i will reap nothing from the effort that i'm going to put in.. that will be very disheartening. if this is impossible, then i need to convince myself (though i already know) that it is the journey that matters. not the ending.
okie. enuff of endless self-talk. back to nonsense stuff.. the SIA thingy is over the weekend at Meritus.. so i guess that means i better not ask for weekend work schedule coz i dun want to end up directing pple that i know (and dun really want to see) to the correct level and place. i know lots of my coursemates (plus my cousin's coursemates and friends) are going.. so all the best ya.. to all applicants.. SQ needs a new batch of confident, efficient, pleasant-looking cabin crew... to take over the existing ones who are intoxicated with nicotine, those who succumb to temptations and peer pressure.. dun claim that 'social' is a good excuse. it's all bullshit..
to me.
i dunno whether it's the post exam period, the storyline, or me. but somehow i hate this time when i know there's sth important for me to do yet i dunno what it is, dunno where to start and how to do it. this feeling of helplessness. this unanchored feeling. most of my friends have plans. of what they want to do in life, how they want to proceed. after our poly education, even though we think we chose the wrong course, at the end of it all, AT LEAST they learnt that their passion lies somewhere else and are working hard towards it.. pple have already started looking for jobs, going for interviews, planning their lives. but what i am doing now is simply half wasting my time idling around, hoping that some miracle fall from the sky so that God can give me some good plans for my future.
i have better grades than many of my friends. so what?! they have dreams and sad to say, i think that's more important than pieces of papers with various numbers on them... i finally realise today the reason behind the lack of motivation in my life in whatever i do.
There is motivation only when there are expectations. when i expect nothing, how can i be motivated? i used to work hard in the past so that i can prove myself to those pple who dont believe. and what did i get in the end? applause that even the giver cannot remember, that the receiver doesnt even actually give a damn? sometimes it's like a joke. felt as if someone pointed at the sky and said 'see, a bird flew past.' and then get back to whatever he or she is doing and then nobody thought much about it after that.
I was thinking.. i just need to work for 40 years or so. so long as our lives dont cross in the future, how i will be doing actually makes no difference to anyone else. it's right that i shldnt be bothered about what others think and how they feel but somehow it doesnt seem right. it's as if i am the one not bothered by how my life is going to turn out.. my family, relatives, even my neighbours are concerned on how i'm going to move on from here.
PLEASE. dont let my life be a 400m stadium track. at the end of it all, i dont want to realise that i'll end up where i started.. coz i'm not prepared to know that i will reap nothing from the effort that i'm going to put in.. that will be very disheartening. if this is impossible, then i need to convince myself (though i already know) that it is the journey that matters. not the ending.
okie. enuff of endless self-talk. back to nonsense stuff.. the SIA thingy is over the weekend at Meritus.. so i guess that means i better not ask for weekend work schedule coz i dun want to end up directing pple that i know (and dun really want to see) to the correct level and place. i know lots of my coursemates (plus my cousin's coursemates and friends) are going.. so all the best ya.. to all applicants.. SQ needs a new batch of confident, efficient, pleasant-looking cabin crew... to take over the existing ones who are intoxicated with nicotine, those who succumb to temptations and peer pressure.. dun claim that 'social' is a good excuse. it's all bullshit..
to me.
February 22, 2006
half copied post
freaking hell. i forgot to reply sms again. not the first time, wont be the last either.. but i think my phone only activates during bad timings.. i'm lucky my friends didnt scream at me.
my poly education is officially over. but i aint looking forward to moving on in life.. maybe that's why i dont feel exceptionally happy or contented after my last paper today, unlike all the other semesters... boring life. boring me. i found rust in my brain coz i cant seem to start the engine going. my brain is constantly in resting mode. so i copied part of my older entries and tadah. a new entry:
[Change. i guess that's what life is. It's change. Like how things die and new things take their place. I always was fascinated by that and how humans evolved from tiny one-cell creatures struggling for life in a hostile land. Maybe now, it's my time to change, and grow. Maybe what i have to do is find someway to enjoy the change, so it's like i'm drifting down the river, instead of drowning.]
I love the last part.
... so it's like i'm drifting down the river, instead of drowning ...
my poly education is officially over. but i aint looking forward to moving on in life.. maybe that's why i dont feel exceptionally happy or contented after my last paper today, unlike all the other semesters... boring life. boring me. i found rust in my brain coz i cant seem to start the engine going. my brain is constantly in resting mode. so i copied part of my older entries and tadah. a new entry:
[Change. i guess that's what life is. It's change. Like how things die and new things take their place. I always was fascinated by that and how humans evolved from tiny one-cell creatures struggling for life in a hostile land. Maybe now, it's my time to change, and grow. Maybe what i have to do is find someway to enjoy the change, so it's like i'm drifting down the river, instead of drowning.]
I love the last part.
... so it's like i'm drifting down the river, instead of drowning ...
February 20, 2006
The legend of the Taj Mahal
*sigh* not in the mood for maths practice.
suddenly realised that i wont be able to use the TP library, every again. *sigh again
was reading an old article by Dr James Dobson last night and wanted to post it before i forget..
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The legend of the Taj Mahal:
The Taj Mahal is one of the most beautiful and costly tomb ever built, but there is a fascinating legend around its beginnings.
In 1629, when the favourite wife of Indian ruler Shah Jahan died, he ordered that a magnificent tomb to be built as a memorial to her. The Shah placed his wife's casket in the middle of a parcel of land and construction of the temple began around it. But several years into the venture, the Shah's grief for his wife gave way to a passion for the project.
One day, while surveying the site, he reportedly stumbled over a wooden box and he had some workers throw it out. It was months before he realised that his wife's casket had been destroyed. The original purpose for the memorial became lost in the details of construction. As legends go, this one may or may not be true, but its theme is a familiar one in the lives of people.
How many of us set out to build these great dream castles, but we lose our focus along the way? We realised too late that it is relationships with our loved ones and our children that really matter.
J Paul Getty, one of the richest men in America, wrote, "I've never been given to envy, save for the envy I feel toward those people who have the ability to make a marriage work and endure happily. It's an art I've never been able to master."
So while we're building our Taj Mahals, let's not forget the purpose with which we began.
suddenly realised that i wont be able to use the TP library, every again. *sigh again
was reading an old article by Dr James Dobson last night and wanted to post it before i forget..
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The legend of the Taj Mahal:
The Taj Mahal is one of the most beautiful and costly tomb ever built, but there is a fascinating legend around its beginnings.
In 1629, when the favourite wife of Indian ruler Shah Jahan died, he ordered that a magnificent tomb to be built as a memorial to her. The Shah placed his wife's casket in the middle of a parcel of land and construction of the temple began around it. But several years into the venture, the Shah's grief for his wife gave way to a passion for the project.
One day, while surveying the site, he reportedly stumbled over a wooden box and he had some workers throw it out. It was months before he realised that his wife's casket had been destroyed. The original purpose for the memorial became lost in the details of construction. As legends go, this one may or may not be true, but its theme is a familiar one in the lives of people.
How many of us set out to build these great dream castles, but we lose our focus along the way? We realised too late that it is relationships with our loved ones and our children that really matter.
J Paul Getty, one of the richest men in America, wrote, "I've never been given to envy, save for the envy I feel toward those people who have the ability to make a marriage work and endure happily. It's an art I've never been able to master."
So while we're building our Taj Mahals, let's not forget the purpose with which we began.
February 19, 2006
I used to think my strength is nothing but patience, patience and more patience. Like many others, one of my aspirations is to be a childcare teacher/helperwatever-u-call-the-position. I ONCE thought that early childhood is a great choice for my future career because i thought that my personality suits that of a caregiver.. well, i was wrong.
i never know kids can be as irksome as my cousin. throughout last night's dinner, i was trying my bestest to stop myself from strangling him. and i was thinking why dont his parents give him a tight slap so that he'll learn his lessons not to misbehave? i thought reward and punishment are the two ways to make sure learning is achieved. whatever it is, i didnt really enjoy my dinner, which is supposed to be fantastic coz we had buddha jump over the wall, pork ribs, and my fav yam paste.. the dinner cost a bomb but somehow i had a terrible time..
I didnt regret not blogging last night.. if not it'll be paragraphs and paragraphs of complaints, comments and grumbles.. i'm trying very very very hard to curb my anger and annoyance.. and i'm glad we dont see each other often.. i dont want to start training for high blood pressure anytime soon. please, i need more patience, forgiveness and total blindness when i'm with them.
and i FINALLY started on my calculus.. it's irritating knowing that whatever i studied will only be useful for that 2 hours.. and whatever effort i put in for my poly education will result in a figure printed on a cert, represented by my grades.. then how can my future employer judge my growth in these 3 years?? how can they then be able to know whether i can get along well with others, the way i work and the type of worker i am? and i am in no right to complain coz i live in a society where everything boils down to numbers.. results and grades weight nothing.
i want people to employ me because of my attitude. not my qualifications. and this cannot be done because i live in a superficial society.
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did this online test thingy.. and the results say that my mood tends to swing between passive and calm.
Most of the time you feel passive. Passivity is experienced as a stillness in mind and body.
You probably focus more on quietude than the emotional ups and downs of good and bad moods.
When you feel calm, your positive outlook on life is paired with a fairly low energy level.
Although you might not realize it, your lower energy level is a positive attribute, allowing you to fully experience and appreciate your feelings of optimism.
When you experience the ups and downs of mood swings, the most important thing to remember is that you're not alone.
Everyone—even the calmest individual—is liable to fly off the handle now and again.
so now that i know my low energy level is actually a good trait, i shall go back to more slacking and resting coz i really want to fully experience and appreciate my feelings of optimism.
goodbye.
i never know kids can be as irksome as my cousin. throughout last night's dinner, i was trying my bestest to stop myself from strangling him. and i was thinking why dont his parents give him a tight slap so that he'll learn his lessons not to misbehave? i thought reward and punishment are the two ways to make sure learning is achieved. whatever it is, i didnt really enjoy my dinner, which is supposed to be fantastic coz we had buddha jump over the wall, pork ribs, and my fav yam paste.. the dinner cost a bomb but somehow i had a terrible time..
I didnt regret not blogging last night.. if not it'll be paragraphs and paragraphs of complaints, comments and grumbles.. i'm trying very very very hard to curb my anger and annoyance.. and i'm glad we dont see each other often.. i dont want to start training for high blood pressure anytime soon. please, i need more patience, forgiveness and total blindness when i'm with them.
and i FINALLY started on my calculus.. it's irritating knowing that whatever i studied will only be useful for that 2 hours.. and whatever effort i put in for my poly education will result in a figure printed on a cert, represented by my grades.. then how can my future employer judge my growth in these 3 years?? how can they then be able to know whether i can get along well with others, the way i work and the type of worker i am? and i am in no right to complain coz i live in a society where everything boils down to numbers.. results and grades weight nothing.
i want people to employ me because of my attitude. not my qualifications. and this cannot be done because i live in a superficial society.
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did this online test thingy.. and the results say that my mood tends to swing between passive and calm.
Most of the time you feel passive. Passivity is experienced as a stillness in mind and body.
You probably focus more on quietude than the emotional ups and downs of good and bad moods.
When you feel calm, your positive outlook on life is paired with a fairly low energy level.
Although you might not realize it, your lower energy level is a positive attribute, allowing you to fully experience and appreciate your feelings of optimism.
When you experience the ups and downs of mood swings, the most important thing to remember is that you're not alone.
Everyone—even the calmest individual—is liable to fly off the handle now and again.
so now that i know my low energy level is actually a good trait, i shall go back to more slacking and resting coz i really want to fully experience and appreciate my feelings of optimism.
goodbye.
February 17, 2006
sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz sianz
i think i can live to a hundred.. coz people who dun have much stress, dun use their brains much, slack ard too long, will prolong their lives by at least 30 years.. i belong to this category of pple..
may i die earlier.
argh.. sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian
i think i can live to a hundred.. coz people who dun have much stress, dun use their brains much, slack ard too long, will prolong their lives by at least 30 years.. i belong to this category of pple..
may i die earlier.
argh.. sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian
February 16, 2006
This porcupine url came into mind when i read the notebook that i haven been updating..
[ Everything in the world has the characteristics of a porcupine. that is, everything in the world will inevitably yield both pleasure and pain.
Friends are like porcupines. They're a source of delight when they're nice to you, but they hurt pretty much when they decide to use you.
Careers and jobs. You're happy when you get your regular promotions, and you will be sad when you lose your job.
Even our own bodies are like porcupines. They give us pleasure and comfort when they are healthy, and make us totally miserable when they are old and diseased..
Even life itself, is like a porcupine.. ]
was feeling kinda sad when i read it.. but well, on to more meaningful stuff.. some quotes to share..
- The more enlightened we become, the more we can't be lived up to by anyone anywhere.
The more we learn, the more we'd better expect to live by ourselves..
- It's hardest to love the ordinary things. But you get lots of opportunities to practice.
- Love is when someone hurts you and you get so mad but you dont yell at them because you know it would hurt their feelings.
- Feelings change, people stay. Love can fade, but life must go on.
More quotes to post, but those can wait. Though V day is over, i still hope u pple can have showers of blessings and heavy downpour of love this year..
[ Everything in the world has the characteristics of a porcupine. that is, everything in the world will inevitably yield both pleasure and pain.
Friends are like porcupines. They're a source of delight when they're nice to you, but they hurt pretty much when they decide to use you.
Careers and jobs. You're happy when you get your regular promotions, and you will be sad when you lose your job.
Even our own bodies are like porcupines. They give us pleasure and comfort when they are healthy, and make us totally miserable when they are old and diseased..
Even life itself, is like a porcupine.. ]
was feeling kinda sad when i read it.. but well, on to more meaningful stuff.. some quotes to share..
- The more enlightened we become, the more we can't be lived up to by anyone anywhere.
The more we learn, the more we'd better expect to live by ourselves..
- It's hardest to love the ordinary things. But you get lots of opportunities to practice.
- Love is when someone hurts you and you get so mad but you dont yell at them because you know it would hurt their feelings.
- Feelings change, people stay. Love can fade, but life must go on.
More quotes to post, but those can wait. Though V day is over, i still hope u pple can have showers of blessings and heavy downpour of love this year..
February 15, 2006
V day is over.. finally..
spent the day in chinatown having dim sum for lunch and kbox session as our get-together activity.. start si xing bu gai.. end qing fei de yi..
my bro's friends came over on feb 13 night.. and i started off V day laughing at the things they say.. cant remember the last time i laugh like that..
rather reluctant to start calculus.. never really like maths anyway.. so i started another vcd marathon.. lolx.. spent so many days worry-free, slacking thruout.. that i dont have the energy to start moving on again.. someone help pls.
spent the day in chinatown having dim sum for lunch and kbox session as our get-together activity.. start si xing bu gai.. end qing fei de yi..
my bro's friends came over on feb 13 night.. and i started off V day laughing at the things they say.. cant remember the last time i laugh like that..
rather reluctant to start calculus.. never really like maths anyway.. so i started another vcd marathon.. lolx.. spent so many days worry-free, slacking thruout.. that i dont have the energy to start moving on again.. someone help pls.
February 13, 2006
Com down for eternity. that explains why u pple dont see me online anymore.. lolx.. actually i quite like not touching the com... i stay glued to the TV almost everyday.. arbo i stay reading comics the entire night.. after countless attempt by my mom to psycho me to apply for uni since CNY, i finally did today.. i hope i've completed whatever i need to do..
one thing to note, i hate NUS application system.. it sux. firstly, it's either the uni doesnt recognise hospi as a qualified diploma for uni studies, arbo the mgtmnt doesnt know that such a course existed.. then the many 'essays' the system requires.. damn. my sisters were told to leave me alone if they dont want me to start snapping every time they get near me. i didnt know application can be THAT difficult.. *sigh x10000
oh ya.. before i forget, i have to 'announce' that my bro managed to get an 'incredible result' for his O levels.. As an elder sister, i have to admit my 'clever' brother in the normal acad stream can actually score so well... he did not get anything lower than a B3.. oh my.. oh my.. he performed better than his friend, who he claimed has been in the first position in normal acad for like the past 4 years... he scored 14 for L1B4.. so now he's getting all yaya papaya.. and that stupid fella wants to get into HTM. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!!!
even after telling him NOT to choice the path i chose for the past 3 years, he still wants to get in.. damn it.. wonder why.. he spent one whole afternoon on sunday deciding on what route to take, what courses to choose, how to rank and so on.. he even gave up the chance t gamble.. oh my.. somthing must be wrong somewhere.. i remember i only spent like half an hour clicking away on my choices when i decided to enrol.. actually i hope he gets into any of the aerospace courses.. the prospects look good.. :)
and my sis.. she actually scored c5 for chinese.. oh my... i almost fainted.. lolx.. best wishes to her.. after seeing my bro's scores, i hope she buck up and achieve better results for her Os this year..
i missed Monica's farewell thingy on Saturday.. have not been in contact since the last time i saw her in archery.. best wishes, wherever you are.. stay happy always.. =)
one thing to note, i hate NUS application system.. it sux. firstly, it's either the uni doesnt recognise hospi as a qualified diploma for uni studies, arbo the mgtmnt doesnt know that such a course existed.. then the many 'essays' the system requires.. damn. my sisters were told to leave me alone if they dont want me to start snapping every time they get near me. i didnt know application can be THAT difficult.. *sigh x10000
oh ya.. before i forget, i have to 'announce' that my bro managed to get an 'incredible result' for his O levels.. As an elder sister, i have to admit my 'clever' brother in the normal acad stream can actually score so well... he did not get anything lower than a B3.. oh my.. oh my.. he performed better than his friend, who he claimed has been in the first position in normal acad for like the past 4 years... he scored 14 for L1B4.. so now he's getting all yaya papaya.. and that stupid fella wants to get into HTM. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!!!!!!!!!
even after telling him NOT to choice the path i chose for the past 3 years, he still wants to get in.. damn it.. wonder why.. he spent one whole afternoon on sunday deciding on what route to take, what courses to choose, how to rank and so on.. he even gave up the chance t gamble.. oh my.. somthing must be wrong somewhere.. i remember i only spent like half an hour clicking away on my choices when i decided to enrol.. actually i hope he gets into any of the aerospace courses.. the prospects look good.. :)
and my sis.. she actually scored c5 for chinese.. oh my... i almost fainted.. lolx.. best wishes to her.. after seeing my bro's scores, i hope she buck up and achieve better results for her Os this year..
i missed Monica's farewell thingy on Saturday.. have not been in contact since the last time i saw her in archery.. best wishes, wherever you are.. stay happy always.. =)
February 06, 2006
Christmas is 12 months early this year coz my parents are acting so much like santa.. No new year mood (as usual), but happiness is in the air. I cant even remember my Dad giving his stern face. geesh.. that IS a miracle..
I used to think that the number of new clothing i buy and put on each CNY sort of signify the amount of luck, happiness and good fortune that will come my way the entire year. This year, i have not a single piece of new clothing but it is definitely my best in the years since my grandma's death.. i guess the fortune god must have stopped by this year..
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during this 'happy times', i've been thinking whether it's fair to keep helping those who don't want to help themselves... they're juz like a hole with a bottomless pit.. no matter how hard u try, it is juz impossible to fill.. okie.. must think happy thoughts...
I used to think that the number of new clothing i buy and put on each CNY sort of signify the amount of luck, happiness and good fortune that will come my way the entire year. This year, i have not a single piece of new clothing but it is definitely my best in the years since my grandma's death.. i guess the fortune god must have stopped by this year..
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during this 'happy times', i've been thinking whether it's fair to keep helping those who don't want to help themselves... they're juz like a hole with a bottomless pit.. no matter how hard u try, it is juz impossible to fill.. okie.. must think happy thoughts...
February 01, 2006
love being a chinese
Finally got this new bloggie up..
A new year, a new start.
NO school for me till next Monday, which is definitely a bonus.. after rushing assignments for the past two weeks.. Last Friday marked the perfect end to my year, resulting in my very happy and contented mood..
some issues that set me thinking before the new year.
1) James- After knowing him for like 10 years (??), i was aware of his bdae for the first time.. (*claps.. for my ignorance and boxim-ness)
2) Saw Limei and realised that we've slowed down on our rate of speaking.. and i still remember that peking duck's favourite song in primary six was 'xue ren' by fan xiao xuan.. this shows that humans certainly only remember moments.. and actually time has no impact on us.. at least that applies to me..
people come, people go.. sometimes we're fortunate enough to meet up, otherwise be glad that 'our paths crossed'..
read WEEDEND TODAY and my astrology predicitons for the weekends put a smile to my face.. it was printed '... a period of frustration or delays come to an end..' was nodding away when i read it.. the happiness of knowing the true meaning behind preseverence 'tough times never last but tough people do.'
this new year marks a whole new beginning.. i always love the fact that being a chinese, i have two chances a year to make things right.. first being January the first, then the lunar new year.. anything that i cant seem to put right in Jan, i can have a second go somewhere in Feb.. that means whatever decisios i make has a 'probation period' of abt a month of adjustment..
i love being a chinese..
this year's visiting aint really fantastic.. engaging in small talk with relatives actually mean a question and answer session of 'where-is-ur-bf-why-u-dun-hav-a-bf' series of discussion topics.. really hated myself for not wanting to join my bro to visit Taiwan for the new year.. i bet shopping at xi men ding, strolling in shilin ye shi, enjoying the serenity in dan shui and ating taiwan la chang in Taiwan is a much wiser choice of enjoyment and indulgence in the festive season.. stupid me.
seeing all my cousins grown up makes me feel a tad sad.. i can never turn back time and find myself saying 'when will the rain stop. i want to go see-saw. i know a great idea, let's pray to the rain gods' as if the question is perfectly fine.. our relationships can never be the same again... so childhood memories are just, well, memories.. i'm starting to crap again..
so, i guess that's it. my very first entry.
A new year, a new start.
NO school for me till next Monday, which is definitely a bonus.. after rushing assignments for the past two weeks.. Last Friday marked the perfect end to my year, resulting in my very happy and contented mood..
some issues that set me thinking before the new year.
1) James- After knowing him for like 10 years (??), i was aware of his bdae for the first time.. (*claps.. for my ignorance and boxim-ness)
2) Saw Limei and realised that we've slowed down on our rate of speaking.. and i still remember that peking duck's favourite song in primary six was 'xue ren' by fan xiao xuan.. this shows that humans certainly only remember moments.. and actually time has no impact on us.. at least that applies to me..
people come, people go.. sometimes we're fortunate enough to meet up, otherwise be glad that 'our paths crossed'..
read WEEDEND TODAY and my astrology predicitons for the weekends put a smile to my face.. it was printed '... a period of frustration or delays come to an end..' was nodding away when i read it.. the happiness of knowing the true meaning behind preseverence 'tough times never last but tough people do.'
this new year marks a whole new beginning.. i always love the fact that being a chinese, i have two chances a year to make things right.. first being January the first, then the lunar new year.. anything that i cant seem to put right in Jan, i can have a second go somewhere in Feb.. that means whatever decisios i make has a 'probation period' of abt a month of adjustment..
i love being a chinese..
this year's visiting aint really fantastic.. engaging in small talk with relatives actually mean a question and answer session of 'where-is-ur-bf-why-u-dun-hav-a-bf' series of discussion topics.. really hated myself for not wanting to join my bro to visit Taiwan for the new year.. i bet shopping at xi men ding, strolling in shilin ye shi, enjoying the serenity in dan shui and ating taiwan la chang in Taiwan is a much wiser choice of enjoyment and indulgence in the festive season.. stupid me.
seeing all my cousins grown up makes me feel a tad sad.. i can never turn back time and find myself saying 'when will the rain stop. i want to go see-saw. i know a great idea, let's pray to the rain gods' as if the question is perfectly fine.. our relationships can never be the same again... so childhood memories are just, well, memories.. i'm starting to crap again..
so, i guess that's it. my very first entry.
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