I'm learning how to flap now that I've made the decision to take the leap of faith and definitely need to believe that i will be able to build my wings on the way down.
I guess what i am seeking for the past few days was exactly what BL was searching for- reassurance that i am making the right decision.
Then again, what is right is subjective. So well, i suppose sometimes we (I) just need others to remind me that what's awaiting at the finishing line is the ribbon and NOT anything else. Definitely not an invitation to a never-ending marathon.
Aint quite myself recently. I guess going home after staying out for 2 whole weeks only to see them for a day and coming back to hall makes me even more homesick compared to seeing them for 3 days a week. so I fathom absence really makes the heart fonder.
The load on my mind this semester outweighs the past 3 semesters combined. After making
the decision to take on more responsibility, i realised just how much that issue has been lingering in my subconscious all the while, surfacing constantly at the most inappropriate time, like during periods of higher stress or fatigue level. I can't get out of the trapped frame of thought, that horrible cycle that seems to rotate endlessly, like how my mind has became.
But no worries. this time round I AM going to forcefully stop the scales from swaying (again). and just like the many other times that i did, i KNOW that everything is going to turn out fine. So much for being wishy-washy.
When i say nothing matters, i guess sometimes i mean it as an unconventional point of view. Nothing matters meaning EVERYTHING matters so much so that even nothing matters.
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