we know that it's the journey that counts but choose to see only the end. what happens in between is no big deal. actually.
i spent 15 hours of my rest day slouching and watching tv. if God gives me one more hour everyday, i guess i'll spend it pretty much the way i do now.. by wasting it away.. to put it in a nicer way, i'll use the extra hour for more rest and less work.
i've entered another void in my life recently, and cant seem to find a way out. it's the kind of period where nothing matters very much and few things matter at all. i guess i know now how a person in coma feels. just like i continue to wake up every morning, get ready for work, do what i'm paid to do, go home after work and sleep when night falls.. then i repeat what i did the previous day the next time i open my eyes, with not one single happy thought of being alive.. those self-help books always mention somthing about waking up each morning knowing that i'm alive and deciding to be happy for the day.. not that i dread waking up every morning and facing a whole new day, but because i know that i have to spend the rest of my life pretty much like the rest of the people on this Earth does, going through hour after hour until the day our life ends. somehow, this is pathetic. personality tests proved that i'm a person who prefers routine stuff.. but somehow this doesnt appeal to me. living life doesnt.
i tried so hard to find something to look forward to and realised that i'm thankful on Fridays because the workload is crazy and that Saturday i work half as much i do on Fridays and that Sunday is my OFF.. this doesnt make me feel good but at least i know that after 4 times of such 'happy thoughts', i'll go through one month and after 12 months of such thoughts, i'll be older by one year, that means i'll be nearer to my destination by a year too. that is certainly not where i'm looking forward to, but that's where i'm definitely going. so i dont think too much..
IF LIFE IS ONLY A JOURNEY TOWARDS DEATH, THEN WHY ARE WE WORKING SO HARD TOWARDS IT?
2 comments:
cos we want to enjoy the process
life is indeed only a journey towards death... but remember to play hard as well as work hard towards it... you see if you only work hard on your journey to death then all you can remember on your deathbed is how much you slogged it out... and work work work... but if you play hard as well... then you have a fullfilling life to recall when at a ripe old age, you walk down memory lane...
death is not the key point.. the journey, what good you make out of your journey... is
take care papa juliet =P
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