Letting go

Aint in a fantastic mood recently.

Can't seem to bring myself to enjoy orientation to the fullest.

It has been confirmed.

Was told the news after Dean's evening.

He's brain dead, but still alive. His heart is still functioning and they're still feeding him milk.

I know that there is no chance of him waking up. It's kinda sad when u know there isnt even a slim chance. Not even hope for a miracle.

Didnt go down to visit him due to orientation. was feeling kinda guilty coz i still went for orientation when he's in such a state. but then again, it's like i'll only get orientated once in my uni life.. one step at a time i guess.

I really have no idea how much more time we have with him. Was told by the Doc what we usually hear on TV- might be tonight, tomorrow or next week. was hoping we could somehow buy more time. more time to prepare ourselves for the goodbye. more time to accept the fact that no one lives forever and it's a natural process to pass on somehow, someday.

I guess i need more time for self-talks so that i can be prepared, come what may.

I dunno abt the rest. but letting go has always been my greatest weakness.