Been thinking up a lot of wants recently.
Things that I know I can do without but can be a source of self-assurance that I'm living & behaving normally based on the assumption that in any case, I will want more of a commodity than less of it. anyway, 'wants' is a subset of 'needs'.

Soon I'll leave my teenage self behind and advance into adulthood (hey, I'm trying to be serious here!). Still thinking how I'll say goodbye to the old-self-gonna-be and move closer to who-i-wanna-be.. Most prob get myself sth that I think I want.

Blog has been up for 2 years. URL and skins changed a couple of times. the number of entries come to to more than 500. Frankly speaking, I have no idea how I managed to come up with things to say 500 times. Serious. Put the archives back into my blog recently. Love the feeling of being able to just browse thru the entries as and when I like without signing in to blogger and previewing the posts one by one. Sometimes, I amaze myself. I ACTUALLY make sense in some of my entries. lolx. am now a little proud of myself so I start to wonder if others who happened to come across this blog, start nodding away as their eyes follow the lines on screen, tried retrieving my previous entries (esp my previous bloggie, condition- if my archives is up) and even taking note of certain things I've said or certain beliefs I stand by. that would be so lovely. but it's just a thought.

yeap. pple have been asking my abt school. the pple there are crazy. they can do a half an hr presentation with complete scripts and videos for an assignment that is not graded. IT IS NOT GRADED. back in TP, most of the groups would just send a representative up and give a 5 mins brief presentation. that's the difference. Maybe they have no idea abt the marks allocation for the subject. or maybe they're just plain hardworking (is there even such a word?).

one of my subject's grpmates actually bother to perfect a group assignment that consists of 9 members. 9 mbrs! someone even created a community in the sch website so that we are able to upload stuff and use the forum for discussion. Need they be so enthu? spending 4 hrs on 8 simple qns, finding all possibilities with the qns, thinking WAY OUTTA the box.

recalled what we did in poly if we are not progressing-
there's always tml.
silence means consent.
Majority wins.
'let's move on' sounds much more practical and sensible than repeating 'i think we should do this, or that, or maybe that. or maybe not. what u said make sense. what he brought up sounds okay too. what do you think?' again and again at 8pm on a raining FRIDAY night and some pple are having dinner buffet just 50 metres away frm the table we're discussing. i'm cold, hungry and dead beat after a long week. and all they do is to repeat 'go back to the previous slide will you?

3 sentences kept running thru my head then:
1) u can think all you want over the weekend, then we discuss again.
2) Let me go will ya. u all continue.
3) SOMEONE PLS SAVE ME!!!!!!!!

what makes it worse is that they dun like to break down into smaller grps to start on diff things. they ant ALL to participate in the discussion. that i find it SOOOO unproductive. we have the outline so some start on the slides, others on the handout. we'll take less than half the time needed. missed the time when we'll just divide the workload and everyone is perfectly comfortable with the arrangement, trusting ur grpmates completely. THAT, i call teamwork.
THIS, speechless.