my saviour song came on air.. it's easy to miss out on the simple good in life when u are on a smooth track. the valley times seemed so far away.

the tourism sociology lecture on fri is the best one of yet. the video on Nepal is inspiring. or maybe i've been sleeping thru the other lectures to even be bothered. anyway, this tourist mentioned that the rich going to poorer countries to have a different experience and the poor longing to go to nice foreign countries for a holiday.

sometimes we go away so that we'll be better able to appreciate what we have now. it's not so much that we are unhappy with what we have.. just that we can better know how fortunate we are after a trip away from home. if u feel the same during a trip and at home, then it defeats the purpose of going away. might also be that problems are seemingly easier to handle after a break.. till you're ready to face whatever that has to come..

felt so guilty after the video. i know that if i work hard for half a year, i'll save enough money to go overseas for maybe a week or so. then continue slogging till the next trip. this is a guaranteed incentive in this part of the world that i'm living in. i am sure that i can decide and choose whatever route i think i want to choose and do whatever i feel like doing, so long it's within the law.. i can continue studying and get a degree after 3 years, i ca drop out right now and find a job that i want, apply for any job i want to/feel like doing. or even just slack at home for a couple of weeks to rest. It's like knowing i have the power, ability and freedom to be myself. luxurious life. opportunities aplenty. unlimited choices.

i'm kinda glad that in this lifetime, i'm here. I'M HERE. not in Nepal, not in Antigua, not in new guinea. not anywhere else but Singapore. the land of opportunities amidst restricted freedom. just how lucky can i get? so i ask myself. what did i do my past life to deserve this good life? how much good i did then to enjoy all that i have now.

back to my saviour song. was that coz it accompanied me through rough times. then again, how bad can this journey get? yeah.. making mountain out of molehill again? maybe. so maybe i've been living in comfort for too long that every little bump has a great impact. listened to how some schoolmates got into jail, released. some married, with kids. then a friend said "i'm glad u all never change for the worse" and "you're still the same as i last saw you".

stay the same... is that good or bad?