Didnt get my sis anything for her birthday. not even a cake. was in school the whole day and reached home close to 11 at night. rummage thru a particular drawer coz i was in the mood and found a birthday card i gave her in year 1998.

it's weird how things happened. i touch that drawer like once a year. the card was inside an envelope and it was the first thing i took out. amazing huh..

6 years, just like that.

will be doing the 7,7 thing on monday. he's gone for more than a month, just like that. no major changes in my life, no difficult adjustment period. life's just like that.

mid-autumn festival will soon be here. next friday to be exact. i've been looking forward to mooncakes since like April. but since i'm not allowed to celebrate, i cant really indulge in mooncakes. can even purchase any.. Grr... have to wait for pple to give mooncake as gift before i can eat. it's another of the many traditions and culture thing again. if we can't celebrate, cant buy, why shld we even eat? they say not allowed to celebrate this festival coz it symbolises 'tuan yuan'. and cant buy coz mooncakes are round, and it reinforces the 'tuan yuan' spirit. if that's the case, easy. get a mooncake that's square!!

sad~ mid-autumn has always been one of my fav festivals. i miss da bing!!!! my grandpa used to love it too. used to eat it before dinner and he would always nag, then maybe take a piece or two. we had that together a couple of weeks before he passed away. took the last piece and threw the box away. how i wished i left the last piece for him. he wouldnt mind i think. by then he cant even remember me.

when a fellow trainee told me her grandpa had a stroke and became kind of senile thereafter, she chatted with him for over 2 hours but he turned to ask her why his granddaughter haven come to visit him, i was thinking 'oh poor thing!' now i know how she felt then. from an outsider's POV, the only word i can think of is 'pity.'

the term break is over. hafta move on to more difficult things. but that is, after a good dinner to substitute the bdae celebration for my sis. can always leave the troublesome time to tomorrow.