Racing against time

Going steamrolling ahead till 29 April.

Have yet to find time to apologise and explain to Von AND Connie that i won't be working all the way till the end of exams, which by then I prolly wouldnt and couldnt be working due to preparations for Alaska, AND that i cant continue working AFTER i return as i need to fly off to Korea soon after. It's like no matter how i see it, i cant even convince myself that what i say is logical. How are they then able to find another part-timer in such a short time? that i've only been working for half a year then i'll be leaving? and it's not easy that another colleague is pregnant and will be taking leave for a couple of months, Von will be leaving her position for school if she gets in, and i wont be around to even help cover. The boss now needs to recruit 2 full-timer and one part-time staff, coz we'll all be away at the crucial period. Like thanks.

I tried not to let guilt affect my decisions, especially at this crucial period. Been feeling so guilty not working at least once every week at CQ and convincing myself that i deserve a break, especially when it's the end of the week where i can return to my favourite place in the entire world.

At this point in time, i wish i were born with a silver spoon. Where money appears magically some way or another without the need for trade off using time and energy. I could do with some more time in life, we all could. and the fact remains that this is just a dream, for this is Singapore i'm talking about duh!