With the exams drawing near, I know that I'm one step away from living life in the liminal. Thrilled that it takes so little to experience a threshold, and a great one at such. The scene with everyone bowed in deep thoughts, in the same place, at the same time, for the same purpose, is something that I wish can be replicated somewhere else, many times over.

As with all other things that made me want to be someone that aint always with the majority, I guess the trip to Alaska somehow tangibalise what i desire. Hearing Wilson talked about disenchantment and enchantment of society and such, then complemented by the movie Big Fish, sparked off some thoughts that expanded in a million directions.

Maybe what I've been seeking is that out of the world, extraordinary stuff that can truly be experienced when you're not in your comfort zone. I don't mean that it's impossible to undergo such emotions in our mundane lives as I think we somehow always manages to seek magical moments despite everything remaining status quo. As the saying goes:

It's hardest to love the ordinary things, she said,
but you get lots of opportunities to practice.

The little things matter, but the impact is greater at times where situations render one helpless or made one think and feel in ways that is not like usual.

Sitting in the comfort of one's home, ready to venture to the other side of the world where everything is unfamiliar. Taking with me all the riches i have, venturing to the unknown searching for intangibles.

Been thinking. Fear? Maybe. But i figured it's high time I take some (more) risks. Staying on safe shores doesn't help much in building my navigation skills, and i can't set sight on the sea if i don't lose sight of the shore.

Getting away from dependent-independence. Learn to make it on my own. Making my own decisions, testing my limits. That way, I'll know for certain that i can definitely rely on myself if need be in future. As what my grandma had said, "The only person you can ever trust is yourself. Be the only one that is indispensable to yourself. " and with all the literature on how values are inculcated strongest in the young, I've come to accept that as the 'norm,' the 'right' way to behave. It doesn't matter that maybe some other ways are better, or IF the situation render some other behaviors appropriate. I do what i believe is based on MY principles. and if I'm doing what I think is right, it shouldn't bother any other.

Exams are coming, as with all the responsibilities that i know i'll have to face in the near future. The period of time in the entire year which i find intriguing, where things seem like fireworks in the sky or a Charlie Chaplin movie. Embracing all that life has to offer, NOW.