September 15, 2009

Something to look forward to?

Need those stuffs to keep me motivated.

Last time there used to be deadlines that I know I'll meet, signifying the end of a period and the start of a new one.

Like the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

Somehow this time round it seems like everything is clouded and haze is all over those stuffs.

Like the ticket to freedom costs much more than the pot of gold credited into an invisible source of moolah accumulation at the end of the month.

I thought I'll come to forget the feeling of being so tired, since the 17 odd hours i put in every other day in Tok. but life always find someway or another to make a joke out of you.

So here I am, zombie-like and trying to please myself more than anything in the world.

and looking for stuff to keep me sane. things that bring me away from the feeling of being suffocated.

Like searching for the feeling of going away like last year. Like having no responsibility and smiling like all the thousands of photos in the hard disk.

Like the need to go away after a period of work. Like planning for a trip that makes it possible for one to look forward to and count down to happy days.

Like feeling so lucky after work being doted on and cared for.

Like thanks. Thank You.

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